So.............you ruined your marriage..........messed your wife and kids over for a strange piece of tail..........and got divorced............DF'd.............and at the time.........couldn't care of the consequences to follow............then the strange piece of tail dumped you...............and now you are in bad straights financially and every which way but loose...............and you want to try to reconcile with your ex whom you say you still love and maybe she still loves you..........and you would like to FAKE reinstatment!
WOW!!!!!!!!! You sound like so many others I have had the experience of knowing or hearing about as a JW.
Go into strange waters and then after a few years of debauchery with that strange piece of kitty....realize that what you did was crazy.
Hey dude...........you are the one that fuc#ed your own life up and now you are somewhat sorry for it.
Who's to say you wouldn't do the same thing again? If you were an honest......seriously believing Jehovah's Witness who really wanted to repent, then I would feel an inkling of understanding, pity, and sorrow for you. But you were and still are a fraud since you want to FAKE your reinstatement to get your family back.
You got what you deserve. And just think about it..........Do you really deserve to get your family back and screw them over again?
I just hope your really love your family enough to be truthful and sincere about your motives.
HappyDad