I myself am having real problems trying to divide the WT and God, even saying Jehovah brings me instantly back to the org.
I realize now that whatever relationship I had with "jehovah" was that he was the author of the WT. and that was my problem. I sometimes detested the mags, laughed at the study books (especially the Isaiah crap) So when I did that I felt I was scorning God, and so felt evil, I always prayed to God the same pray " please help have more faith, what is wrong with me, help, help, help"
I do believe in God, I just dont know him and never have.