What great replies!
Terry you always seem to put thing so clearly thanks. Zulukai welcome and your post is so true
Im in a strange situation where I was brought up in the truth till i was 9 by my mother who had a very warped idea about God. Then she fell away. I came back in the org when I was 24, so did most of my family, and spent my adult years trying to have a relationship with this scary, cruel God who would punish or kill you without a moment hesitation. I have realized it was always the org that was my god not the creator, if there is one.
Im on a long journey, I know he would forgive me, but I dont know if I want to. Im tired, sick of trying
I dont know if I want eternal life, in heaven or earth, am I sinning against the spirit now?
I just want to get on with things without having to analys everything
I want peace, is there such a thing. Its early days I know, ive believed this crap for nearly 45 years will it take another 45 years, that I havent got, to make me free?
Who knows, but I know this last year has been the best and the hardest in my life thanks