If I do anything good for the benefit of those that come after me, they'll die too. Eventually, I see the human race as becoming extinct one way or another.
Since leaving the watchtower (and I'll never go back), I am living hand to mouth, day to day with nothing to hope for.
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Why wash your hands? They'll just get dirty again.
Why brush your teeth? You'll just get old and die.
This is despair talking--not a healthy intelligent human being born in the age of technology.
Despair is a natural result of sudden self-awareness; especially when you've been spoon fed myths about somebody who loves you being in charge of the Universe.
Now, He is not there.
Oops!
Mourn the loss, certainly. After a good sniffle and a few curses, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and take inventory.
1. You have eyes. So use them to look at beautiful things. Why? It feels wonderful. Look at beautiful women. (Naked ones if you like :)
2. You have ears. So use them to listen to beautiful music or to hear the song of leaves rustling on a summers day and the whisper and sigh as it flows through the grasses on its way toward a poet's heart.
3. You have a sense of touch. Grab something wonderful and hold on to it; perhaps a lover's flesh and rejoice in the sensations of being alive! Feel the tickle of a beloved pet's tongue as it kisses you or the gentle weight of a butterfly on your fingertip.
4. You have a sense of smell. Learn to cook--sniff the fresh-baked bread, walk through fields of flowers and lift your heart with the delight of honeysuckle and lilac. Visit the ocean and sniff the brine as you long for the faraway shores of distant and mysterious land you can visit.
5. You have a sense of taste for succulence and spices and sweet chocolates and lemonade and---well, you get the idea. Take a wine-tasting class. Learn something.
You see, this is YOUR LIFE. You can build it into a palace or squat in it like it's a horrid hovel of cardboard. It is up to you.
You can learn and you can teach. Be a mentor or a musician or an artist or just a helluva fun fellow who makes other people see the exciting possibilities in life.
It is all up to you. This Life is no longer SOMEBODY ELSE'S game with you as a mere token moved about against your will.
Your brain builds your sense of things.
Will you waste it on cynical bitterness?
Or will you pull your shit together and laugh out loud that your prison wardens screwed the pooch and let you out where you can live and love and laugh as you please?
IT IS so SIMPLE: One step follows another.
Take it slow. Be confident you'll find your way.
Good luck!