I talked to my counselor today. Im going into the navy as an officer in the Aeronautics/aerospace engineering field. ill be taking the ASVAB pretty soon. All of my life ive always wanted to join the military, to follow my fathers footsteps, for the structure of military life.
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Am I making the right decision?
by crizlee inok im a senior and its time for me to make decisions.
i either have the choice of going to this art institute thats near me, i wont be able to live on campus.
i really want to go to university of texas but my parents cant afford it let alone will they support me for living in austin.
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Am I making the right decision?
by crizlee inok im a senior and its time for me to make decisions.
i either have the choice of going to this art institute thats near me, i wont be able to live on campus.
i really want to go to university of texas but my parents cant afford it let alone will they support me for living in austin.
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my parents have high income, they're just cheap. i have the option of going to a local college but i wont be able to live on campus, id have to travel back in forth from home. they let the people in the congregation get to them, they told my parents ill fall out of the truth if i live in the dorms. my friends have had for life even treat me like im disfellowshipped when they found out i was falling out of the truth. i really want to move out ASAP. i cant take it anymore.
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Am I making the right decision?
by crizlee inok im a senior and its time for me to make decisions.
i either have the choice of going to this art institute thats near me, i wont be able to live on campus.
i really want to go to university of texas but my parents cant afford it let alone will they support me for living in austin.
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OK im a senior and its time for me to make decisions. i either have the choice of going to this art institute thats near me, i wont be able to live on campus. I really want to go to University of Texas but my parents cant afford it let alone will they support me for living in austin. I'm in the top 5% of my class so im automatically admitted, and I really want to go their to use my potential. And i want to get out of my house away from my parents because they'll enforce their religion on me as long as I live under their roof (they are jehovahs witnesses btw).
I was thinking of joining the Navy once I turn 18 in may. Im gonna celebrate my birthday in may also (ive never been able to celebrate my birthday). Then once I get scholarship Im going to the college I want to go to. Would this be a wise decision? -
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My experience of almost getting out
by crizlee inim 17, baptized, parents are baptized, dads a ms. been baptized for 5 years now.
ive never had a relationship with god all my life.
its my senior year and i declare to make my way out.
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She even told me she has a lot of guy friends and yes i do have friends that are girls at school thats why i tried to say i wasnt jealous but annoyed. truely i do feel um stupid for writing that one entry.
and about standing up for her, she told me my dad yelled at her today for her doing her homework at work when there was nothing else to do. i dont think i can do it. my dad will think there is something between me and her because he specifically yelled at her. if i must tell my dad, what should i say? or should i just do homework with her on break or after work? i told her i would say something to my dad. this other girl that works there thinks i wont.
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My experience of almost getting out
by crizlee inim 17, baptized, parents are baptized, dads a ms. been baptized for 5 years now.
ive never had a relationship with god all my life.
its my senior year and i declare to make my way out.
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Im 17, baptized, parents are baptized, dads a MS. been baptized for 5 years now. Ive never had a relationship with god all my life. I only got baptized to impress this girl i like. lol. Its my senior year and I declare to make my way out. I was antisocial all my high school life because I didnt think it was possible for anything happening between me and my classmates. But a month ago at work, i work with my dad btw which is going to make this story ironic lol.
this chick at work became interested in my life and noticed i didnt want to be a witness. i guess she sort of freed me by taking me to parties and hanging out with me for 2 weekends. then she stopped for awhile. i found her journal which didnt note a crush on me or anything, then i started my own online journal and expressed my feelings in it. and i put it in my instant messanger profile. one night when she got on, we chatted, and i guess she read my journal and subscribed to it at the same time. in it i said this:
"A few weeks ago i met this girl at work, or should i say she met me. she invited me to hang out with her friends and party. she showed me the life i wish i had. at first she had confused me with her signals of calling me up and flirting with me. but now i think i understand, she wanted to know her boss's son. but after 2 weekends of me hanging with her and her friends, i think she has lost interest in me. i notice the flirting stopping, the replies to my txt messaging not coming. i felt insignificant again. and to think i started working more hours just to be around her to get that chance. but i tried to make matters better by stopping by work "to pick up drinks for my friends" but to really talk to her and ask her out. i need someone to talk to. life is pathetic, she was not at work. this girl, i felt like, she was one of a kind. shes smart, she has deep thoughts, she is beautiful. i dont want it to end. shes a really fun person, best of all, very unique. if there is anything i can do to make things work i would do it. my time with her was the best time ever in my life. i hope in the future i will have times like these again. but it still frustrates me that im left again in loneliness."
We chatted all night and she told me she wasnt avoiding me, shes just very busy. in the chat, she said she isnt looking for commitment because of the guys at her high school are immature, and so I ask her if she thinks Im immature. she says no, and i ask her since you dont think immature, want to do something just as friends. she agrees. the next day i see her with 2 guys and i write in my journal this:
"I was looking forward to seeing kara.
We seemed to really connect on last nights chat. but as i came up to work i saw her hanging out with 2 dudes, which was kind of annoying. well when we chatted she said she was a very busy person like she had no time for me, so i just disregarded the annoyance because i could talk to her on break. i covered the frustration with a smile, as always. smiling always makes things better, you are more easy to be approached and it makes the day better. during my shift one of my workmates offered to trade me hours so i could work later. i took his offer to work till 10 in hopes that ill get a better chance to talk to her. and so she was going on her break, but she was with a lot of her guy friends too. maybe im jealous or wanted to talk 1 on 1 or i was too held up in the kitchen. i finally got to take my break once it slowed down, outside by myself, thinking about the day. i really felt the vibe that she doesnt want to talk to me anymore or isnt interested in me as a friend atleast. maybe im more like the insignificant guy-who-works-at-my-work-place. i hate being played, it freaking sucks.
The rest of the evening was crap because she wouldnt talk to me. i came home feeling like crap, so i did some physical exercises to free my mind from the frustration and stress. and to start off my weekend i have to go to work in 4 hours to clean the parking lot. damn i really hope i wont be lonely this weekend. no one deserves to live a life like this. i freaking try so hard and it never seems to accomplish anything."
I wasnt expecting her to read that. but the next day, surprisingly she was very nice, and asked me to go on break with her and again today. there were 2 guys that i think she knew but didnt talk to them whenever we were on break, she only waved bye. not only that but all of her friends comment in my journal now and everyone at work thinks we are in some kind of relationship. lol. not only that but im cool with everyone at school. my life is going to be so great once im out of the house and this religion completely. i regret my past but i really did learn something from it.
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The National Anthem, and JW related social dorkiness
by Netty inwe went to a college football game tonight.
i thoroughly enjoyed the singing of the national anthem.
stood up, without a 2nd thought that there should ever be a reason why i shouldnt.
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My parents are still JW but im not out yet (still baptized, only 17 y/o). For my last year of school i've decided to open up more by trying to participate in extracurricular activiites and just assocciating with friends at school, and I even got invited to go to a football game by one of my friends, but i still havent been able to get invited to a party yet.
at work, this chick started inviting me to come hang out with her. she knows my parents are JW. this has been my 2nd weekend hanging out with her, the 1st one was a birthday party where i went out to eat with her and 3 of her other chick friends. she goes to another school, so the hang outs ive been going to i dont know anyone, but she told me to find out what party's are going around in my town and she'll come with me. i almost got caught last night, so i made up another lie by telling my parents i went to hang out with this one "worldly" friend (first lie was i went to hang out with my witness friends but i messed by getting home at 12). so all i got was 10:00 curfew, restricted driving, and sometimes my parents will follow me, and this is for a month atleast.
i swiftly ended the argument by faking distress and expressing how crappy the literature room management was, i was left to put up the new order by myself last thursday night while the literature boss wasnt there and the 2nd assistent was out congregating.
these few weeks of getting out have been a blast, ive met lots of people (instead of being stuck socially in my congregation),
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Doom 3 and demonism
by crizlee inmy witness friends and i bought doom 3 yesterday to play at my house.
i let one of my friends play first and it scared him so he quit.
next day at the meeting, i tell them how intense the game is, and they are all like "you should burn the game you should throw away the game.
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My witness friends and i bought Doom 3 yesterday to play at my house. I let one of my friends play first and it scared him so he quit. Next day at the meeting, I tell them how intense the game is, and they are all like "you should burn the game you should throw away the game. Youll bring demons into your house." And then they start telling me stories of demonic encounters. One of the most entertaining was this one incident that happened in the woodlands congregation. A scream was heard from the back of the hall and it went to the stage and back to the back and went out the door. And then my friends told me they will quit the band if I keep the game(We all started a rock band, and play it at my house, also started watching porn, which they looked up on my computer... I was surprised) So they were like cool I thought but now uncool with the preaching to me.
Does anyone believe in demons or had an encounter?
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all teens unite here
by crizlee inlets tell a lil about ourselves... me?
well i live in the houston area of texas.
im 17 and raised in the truth, my dad is a ms in the congregation, and i run the literature room.
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ok what assembly are you going to next weekend?
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all teens unite here
by crizlee inlets tell a lil about ourselves... me?
well i live in the houston area of texas.
im 17 and raised in the truth, my dad is a ms in the congregation, and i run the literature room.
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is it wrong to have doubt? i talked to my friend tonight over instant messanger, i told him how things arent just right. like we had the circuit overseer stay at our house, and the dude kept trying to convince me to go to bethel when i clearly told them i wanted to go to college. then i finally told him ill think about it just to make him shut up, and then he tells me again(wtf?). i tell my friend thats how army recruiters recruit, and he's like whatever u r g ay. he finally told me he would not talk to me anymore if i continued down this path. its ridicuoulous how this religion can break up not only familys but friendships. so what congregation you from? if i say mine you better not tell on me for this apostate thinking lol.
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all teens unite here
by crizlee inlets tell a lil about ourselves... me?
well i live in the houston area of texas.
im 17 and raised in the truth, my dad is a ms in the congregation, and i run the literature room.
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my bad, i accidently did something. hey if im getting out of the truth, should i really date someone thats in the truth then?