It has alot to do with fear!
Fear of leaving. Fear of being shunned. Fear of starting over. Fear of doing something different from the norm. Fear of loosing everything.
I just a few months ago started the fade away thing. I am fearful of loosing my family. I don't know what the next few years or even months will bring me. However I can't live a lie. I can't live with myself knowing something so awful, full of lies, hatred, the ruining of families, controling, cover ups. Staying in you still have all the fears. Fear of dying. Fear of who is watching every move you make. Fear of making a small mistake. No matter what you do or say or wear etc... there is always fear behind everything you do.
I hate living in fear. However if I must I must. If I loose my family I loose them. Its hard to say that but what is worse living and breathing lies? I hate to do this but I have to not just for me but for my kids and thier future.
Its sad to think that when you want to take a different path in life whatever it may be you have no support and you are punished for your actions in a way far worse than it should be. You should not have to live in fear. Thats all I ever known in life and that is fear. I hate being scared.
Brooke WI