Appreciate all the comments! Even the ones who think my religion is wacky. Of course its wacky - isn't ALL religion wacky?:)
One thing though I'm not afraid of is truth - I have read every anti-LDS site I can, I've been on fundamentalist sites (not LDS but splinter groups) and have puzzled over loads of things however, I still believe - in fact more so. I even watched the Temple of The God Makers. Why do I read them, because I decided long ago when I was 15 or so that if this LDS faith wasn't good and of worth there was no way I was going to spend 2 years when I got to 19 converting people to something that was false, nor was I spending the rest of my life chasing dreams and putting my kids and family through it. Its the same reason why I'm very interested in all faith systems - I believe in looking and reading about all churches / faiths / philosophies because knowledge gives the best opportunity to make good informed choices.
I don't visit the ex-LDS because it still feels personal (I don't enjoy feeling that knot in my stomach) and I'd spend all my time preaching - here I can relax knowing no-one here wants to be LDS but that also no one here is exLDS (well no one I know about.)
As for the Abraham papyrus that the Book of Abraham was translated from those aren't the same as the bits currently in the church's possession, the facsimiles aren't the Book of Abraham. I have studied all the arguements for and against and there are no killer arguements to destroy the books cred. I'll let you know if I find any.
The greatest unanswered question I have at the moment is about people who are/claim to be gay. I find no scriptural insight into this (other than don't lie man to man) and the LDS church has strong guidleines but no explanations for why. Because I believe that we are eternal and go on for ever and what happens here moulds our characters I wonder what happens when ppl who are gay continue to the next life - do they have to deny who they are? Like I said no answers for this yet - though I do think its wrong - no offense intended.