Posts by missy04

Yah, you're exactly right, I mean by looking at depression as an illness just like any other illness. It's AMAZING, though, how the majority of people will look at it like it's "all in your head." I feel like sayin, "Yah, it IS all in my head, but it's a chemical IMBALANCE up in there." I have had alot of people look at me and say "get over it. It's all in your head. Get your act together."

Hey, a nights sleep can make alot of difference, you're right. And sometimes I know exactly how I am going to feel for the rest of the day by how I feel when I wake up, although I do have a certain amount of control over it.

I have been on lots of medications, also. However I have not had one that was effective. Paxil, Prozac, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, ect. and on and on. I decided that I am not going to spend years trying to find the right medication...lately I have been considering it again though. Honestly, what they did for me, was give me the small amount of motivation I needed to fake a good mood.

I was diagnosed with PTSD also, but I don't think my doctor knew what he was talking about. Then again though sometimes I wonder if I do have it.

Yah, I live at home with my parents. Both my parents are on disability so it's hard. I'm waiting to hear from my big sis (much older...36 ..,about an 18 yr difference) about a huge construction job she's supposed to get to work on in a few weeks. I really enjoy working with her and think it will help me alot to be around her and to have a job, since I don't right now.

Spending time with my big sis and my friends is what helps me.

I know that depression can be really hard on marriages. My best friend is 46 and has severe depression, and it is very hard on her relationship with her husband sometimes. But he supports her no matter what and I know that helps her tremendously.

One thing that I find helps me sometimes, that is if I have enough motivation to start with, is finding something to accomplish. Today I woke up and decided I had to do something productive. Got alot done and it made me feel better than I would have otherwise.

Does your husband know alot about depression?

I sometimes get online when I am doing really bad and look up information on depression, to "remind" my mom and dad that I am not lazy, dumb, crazy or just plain stubborn or mean. It helps (for a while lol) Then I have to remind them again....but I also have to constantly be on myself about trying to put myself in their shoes..I wouldn't like me much either sometimes. And I try to apologize to them when my behavior confuses them or hurts them.

Depression is an up and down thing. Kind of like a roller coaster ride. Just try to grab on and hold on tight when you reach a point where you're doing better. Between my ups and downs I think I have really improved myself and how I deal with it and I feel LOTS better than I used to when I was younger.

If you ever need to talk, PM me. or if you have messenger, and ever need to talk, I am scarlett_skies_2001 on yahoo and scarlyttskys on aol instant messenger.

((HUGS))

~Sarah

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Weird DREAMS ...

by frenchbabyface in

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.... weird dreams.

i'm afraid to think that some particular dreams have a meaning, it's like my intuition talking to me.

i do not always understand their meaning from the start, but later it happen that i can see exactly what they meant (one lately was quiet interesting to realised about the why's and the what exactly).

missy04

Some of my dreams I can explain and some I can not.

I had a dream about a month ago, that I was with my friend Jayme driving in her car. She didn't see that the street ended and had to turn either right or left, because we were so into what we were talking about. Right before she hit the curb, she turned the wheel hard and it hit on the side of her car, which made it flip and roll.

As we rolled across this yard, my seatbelt was choking me, completely cutting off my air. I remember trying to use my strength to hold myself away from the seatbelt in my seat so that I could breathe and thinking "If I can just keep myself breathing I'll be ok, I won't die" Jayme had her seatbelt on too but it wasn't choking her.

I heard Jayme yell "are you ready?" and I looked out the window as we crashed into the house upside down. For a few seconds I was choking because of my seatbelt.

I woke up, and my metal choker necklace was snagged on the blanket under me and I was about to pass out.

But I've had lots of other weird dreams...

Hey, you should try typing in something like "dream interpretations" or "the meaning of dreams" or something in your search engine. I have done that before and found out some of the things that my dreams meant.

Sometimes you can figure them out on your own, though, just using common sense if you are going through some particular challenge in your life.

~Sarah

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It's happening, the anger and depression are taking over

by Tim Horton in

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i haven't posted for a while.

i'm starting to really lose my cool.

i'm angry all the time, it seems at everyone.

missy04

Dear Mrs. Horton,

I understand what you are going through in a way, but I am not married and don't even have a boyfriend right now.

However, over the past few years, my mood has escalated to where I feel very unhappy, depressed and easily hurt . I can say cruel things to my mom and dad and become hurt at the drop of a hat.

I try my best to be nice to everyone around me, and most of the time that works,..it's basically just my mom and dad that I have issues with.

But that's my depression,..I don't know if you have depression or if this is because of some other reason. I don't completely understand how you feel, but then in a way I do understand. Just different circumstances.

I'm sorry for what you are going through

~Sarah

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Three Questions

by StinkyPantz in

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if you were guaranteed honest responses to any three questions, who would you question and what would you ask?

missy04

HMMMMM, I have quite a few questions that I would like to ask quite a few people.

But I guess the most important ones would be, at least to start with,

1) I would like to ask God for the real truth about a few certain events in my childhood.

2) my parents "I know how much you love me, but how much do you really despise me at the same time??"

3) to God: "Am I a worse person than most others or am I just harder on myself than most?"

Those r just off the top of my head but if I were to think about it more I could come up with lots more.

Oh yah,..to my Beagle doggie and ferret: "When you get that sad eye look, do you really want hugs and kisses or did you REALLY just want my steak??" lol

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In you wildest dreams what would you be if you could be anything?

by confusedjw in

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me.. a pitcher for the red sox, i think.. how about you?

movie star?

the president?

missy04

ok why did my post show up twice? lol..

I thought I had just edited it to finish it

hummmmmm,...

Sarah

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How to Deal with Shunners Part I. It Is They Who are Afraid

by jst2laws in

shunners, they are afraid.

how to deal with them.

having been df'd about a year ago for apostasy (the sin of thinking for yourself without disengaging your mouth) i have taken advantage of several opportunities to speak to local jw's.

missy04

Outnfree,

I think it's REALLY cool that you had the guts to do what you did! That took alot of courage! Wish I had that kind of guts! It's so cool and so funny!! LOL

~Sarah