Posts by squinks

I know, you could take your date along when you give that bobcat a sandpaper enema. But then you must remove your declaration that no animals will be harmed during the production of this event

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Am I being paranoid or something? - Advice Please

by TresHappy in

i need some advice.

i have something mentally tearing me up and i think it's been getting to me.

i have a large extended family (4 siblings) and i have been many nieces and nephews.

Why would a parent deny a child the love and companionship of family, I don't get it. I had a very cold unloving extended family as a kid. My extended family is still that way and so my kids had no one but me. That is sad. I would have been thrilled if someone wanted to be with my kids, give them love and attention. I don't understand. I would ask!!! Asking would also give you the opportunity to express your love for your nieces. Maybe your S.I.L. doesn't really understand how you feel, make sure they know how much you love the kids. Try to plan a special outing that will let them know how you feel and express yourself.

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Most Delusional Moment as a Jehovah's Witness

by Terry in

i remember standing there in the evening light of a setting texas sun in the middle of a federal prison with a chilled wind whipping up dust devils around me.

i was twenty years old and so skinny you didn't need an x-ray to see through me.

seagoville was a prison filled with lost souls, men with dumpsters for hearts and foul mouths that spat the contents of a poisoned mind into your ears.

squinks

Terry,

That was a beautifully told horrible story. I had so many delusional moments, none so poigniant as yours but many small ones. I remember summer evenings after supper. My four small children playing in their sandbox in the backyard and me watching them through the window as I did the dishes. The setting sun and my beautiful offspring being well raised in the service of Jehovah. I can still feel the peace and joy welling up in my heart. Or that is what I thought at the time.

Reality was so very different. My elder husband was cheating and soon I would be alone, devastated, poor and all but homeless and friendless, without even family to comfort me and certainly no Jehovah who I loved to the depths of my soul.

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The end of this system in 2005?

by Brigido in

hey everybody, check this story out.

i got a call from an inactive friend of mine today.

while we were just shooting the breeze, she happened to bring up something she heard at the hall from others.

squinks

o and Ezekial yu are funny

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The end of this system in 2005?

by Brigido in

hey everybody, check this story out.

i got a call from an inactive friend of mine today.

while we were just shooting the breeze, she happened to bring up something she heard at the hall from others.

squinks

Wow! I just had the best idea. Since the WT can change the date of stuff that already happened-like the fall of Jerusalem, maybe they could change my birthday. I would love to be 18 again. I would go to college and find a cure for something and drink beer.

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Good Morning

by squinks in

jw
friends

anyone else out there at this ungodly hour?

squinks

O yeah I keep forgetting my little town here in Wisconsin isn't the center of the universe and good evening/morning to you!

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Good Morning

by squinks in

jw
friends

anyone else out there at this ungodly hour?

squinks

Anyone else out there at this ungodly hour?

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Do you feel you will always be "different" from the "world" ?

by LyinEyes in

jw
friends

all of my life,, except for the last two years i was a jw, and i wonder if i will always feel like i am still so very different from the rest of most everyone i know.

i guess i still feel like i am on the "outside" looking in, in on the world of the people i was so alienated from for so long.. i celebrate birthdays, all the holidays, i stand for the national anthemn, but still it does not quiet feel second nature to me .

as i stand watching my son play high school football, my mind is always wandering on the marvel of what i am seeing.

squinks

Sadly, I too am Sad,

At times I am bursting with joy because I am free, but sometimes I wonder what it would be like to really feel the things I do (Christmas etc...)

At times having been raised a JW feels like such a sad reality. But then there are other times. Times when I feel that I have an insight into human nature that some people just don't feel. This is hard, I have such deep feelings about this that it is hard to gather them together.

The thing is that we have had the chance to live two lives. The juxtaposition of the JW belief system with that of "worldly" belief systems no matter which we have chosen represent polar opposites in so many ways. We understand the true power of what we teach our children because even as mature adults we have a hard time releasing what we were taught as children.

What does that teach us?

From it we can understand why racism is so pervasive. From it we learn why there is war or greed or genocide. Then we must find out what we can do - each of us individually to help make the world a better place. Because now that we are a part of the "world" we have a responsibility to it. When I remember and think about these things, I don't have time to be sad-too much to do so then. . . .

Happily, I am Happy.

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The Esoteric Kabbalist roots of Watchtower Theology

by Informant in

"for jews, the belief that god can be human is the ultimate heresy.

rabbi shmuley boteach, on christianity

judaism has its roots in ancient babylon the "holy" book of judaism is called the "babylonian talmud bavli" it is the supreme book in judaism and is based on the writings of the quabbalist rabbis and pharisees.

squinks

And your point would be?