((((Jez))))
I am so sorry you are going through this.
She is incredibly ignorant. Tells me to f off all the time at the hospital, to get lost, to NOT find her, to leave her alone, that she hates me. She has been that way for a long time. Her moods are black and white.
Please don't take it as an insult against you, she is seriously mentally ill and it's her disease speaking NOT HER! I have a sister with sz and believe me I know what you are up against and this is just the beginning of a long, long roller coaster of a ride. You have to get informed and you have to have a support group not only for yourself by all your family members because you all will be affected by this disease.
I recommend two things one is www.schizophrenia.com You can register there and get lots of information and help as well as an online support group.
The other is reading this book called The Quiet Room by Lori Schiller it will give you so much insight to your daughter and what she is dealing with. It's not about YOU it's about what YOU can do to help her best.
My heart is heavy with what you are going through. Please take care of yourself and try very hard to let go of worrying about her and concentrate on your new little one and your husband. She will be okay even if she does something horrible she'll get in the right hands eventually and the system will then start taking care of her illness. Sometimes a person has to reach their bottom before they are willing to surrender and get help, that is not a bad thing but it is hard to watch, I know. Which is why I say to let go, she'll be fine!
Hang in there!