Now that you are out, you can see the suffering around you, and it hurts. You are thawing out. You are becoming human.You are feeling compassion, empathy and love for fellow human beings on this planet. How it hurts to be alive... but it is better than being living dead.
Lisa,
This is so true. I can't imagine what it's like for a newborn to exit the quiet, warm, safe, nurturing womb of their mother. But I imagine the painful journey into the cold, noisy, bright lights of the world are traumatizing. It's much like us that have exited a high-control group. We feel things we've never felt, we see things we've never thought were there. It's scary as hell. But the raw honesty that comes with it is something I will never ever regret experiencing. I AM ALIVE!!! I HAVE BEEN REBORN!!!
Sometimes I imagine God in heaven, watching us exJWs with tears in his eyes. Tears of relief and excitement and fear. Just like a new parent watches their child being born.
Thank you for reminding me what a gift I have!
Andi