Great posts, here!
I always kind of suspected that god was a made up figment of humans' imaginations. By the time I began studying with the jw's at 21 (by golly-just like that JWD Character Fullofdoubtnow/Linda!), I had spent enough time in various churches to be done w/religion. Prior to age 21, I hated god. Still, I wanted to believe in the bible god, or the universal-non religious god or the divine being/higher power/answer to what happens when we die other then we are just dead....etc.
After pulling back from their bible studies and meetings, I began to question them, then other religions--like whether I should be with them or not, and then I questioned the existence of a divine being. I meditated deeply on the possibility of a divine being and realized that although it was possible given humans' requirements for such, it sure as heck wasn't likely.
"How on earth can I ever live without God?!" I cried. I had never actually lived WITH god in the first place. I was born with a LACK of belief until my parents/grandparents (shoot-everyone around me!!!) drilled the belief in my head. Since there is nothing telling me "I am god" except those who try to escape from greystone park, I simply let it go and accepted that I had to embrace a new way of living, of thinking--that is completely absent of a higher being's involvement. There was no risk of anyone getting hurt in all of this.
That was the only change. I was still me, I learned.