I've got one post for the next 14 hours so I figure I'll make it count.
When I was 21 I began to really question the state of the world. You know- "Is this life all there is, yadda yadda." that sort of thing. I had a beautiful 3 year old daughter that I was terrified was going to die in a nuclear holocaust. I was raised Catholic and always felt like God was there and that he heard my prayers.
I began to pray, earnestly, sincerely believing that he would point me in the right direction since all I wanted was to figure out how he wanted me to worship him and raise my child.
I went so far as to drive to a park before sun up several times a week. I would get on my knees and pray while the sun rose. It was so peaceful and beautiful, I felt closer to God as I admired his creation. I begged him to answer my prayers so that I could do his will, no matter what that was.
When the JW sister came to my door and showed me from the Bible that the earth would be a paradise that would not be destroyed I felt like God had heard me and answered. Now I know that it's all lies and I've accepted that I have been lied to by men.
What about God? I have been going back and forth for a few months now between thinking he can't possibly exist to hating him if he does.
I WAS SINCERE FOR PETE'S SAKE!
If he exists, why would he do that to me? I can't believe in or respect a God like that.
I also can't let go of the belief that we were designed or created.
BELIEVERS - How do you continue to believe in a God that would ignore a young mother's pleas?
ATHEISTS - How can you believe that we have no designer or creator as amazing as humans are?
UNDECIDED - How do you live with that?
Please - no fighting, just tell me your viewpoint if you don't mind, without commenting on what others who disagree have posted.