https://www.amazon.com/Earliest-Non-Mystical-Contributions-Biblical-Exegesis/dp/9042929782/
Recently a couple of Evangelicals, John Meade and Peter Gurry, have published a book Scribes & Scripture, where they acknowledge that Yaho was the popular pronunciation of God’s name and are open to the idea that Jesus used this pronunciation. (See page 55) This is an advance on earlier Evangelicals who argued that Jesus would not have used God’s name.
https://www.amazon.com/Scribes-Scripture-Amazing-Story-Bible/dp/1433577895/
Do I gather from what you say that you’re someone who still holds the beliefs of JWs on the divine name but you don’t believe God is using the Watchtower organisation? What are your views on other beliefs, such as Jesus is an angel, future paradise, 1914, blood, the 144,000 and so on? Do you know others in a similar position as yourself?