It had been more than 20 years since I had started drifting from the WTS (I think I was DFd in 1982 or 83) and I only joined the forum in 2003. So, I had to face the long road back all by myself, even to the point of deciding whether or not I still believed in God. The loneliness was crushing, the guilt too much to bear and the separation from family and friends devastating. I came to terms with all that before finding this forum. Take Solis, Ticker, about being confused. Listen to your inner voice and trust your feelings. Be open-minded and scrutinize everything. Sometimes the journey is more important than the destination. You'll find an answer. Even if the answer is: "I don't know" or "I'm not sure", you can have some comfort in that you've explored the avenues available to you.
So, my ideas and opinions were already formed when I came to this forum. But, YES, I was helped here. First of all, it felt good to be reassured that I was not alone. Even if I've dealt with my issues regarding the WTS, I couldn't speak to anyone I know about what it was like, not even to my wife. It just didn't feel satisfactory trying to explain what I went through to someone who has no clue of the inner workings of the Jehovah's Witnesses. Here, I have found a sense of acceptance by virtue of our common experience. I've also learned a lot. I have found topics that I didn't care to examine before, which are now important to me because they have cemented in fact the deviousness of the cult that is the Jehovah's Witnesses, in doctrine, but in particular in emotional ruthlessness.
I've been touched by your stories and by your kind comments of support. I haven't made any friends yet, but look forward to it. I stopped posting for about a year (this is a very time-consuming endeavor for me), but hope I will always be in some sort of contact with this forum as long as it's available. I don't know who maintains it, but I do know that it must be laborious task. My hat is off to you people. This forum could be a giant, evolving time-capsule. Thirty or even fifty years from now, even if the WTBTS is no longer around (who knows), I hope this forum is still available to everyone and anyone to look back on and get a sense of how people felt and to read the plethora of individual stories, vignettes of totally different lives with one common thread. Come to think of it, it could make one hell of a book!
I've laughed my ass off; I've been angy at reading the injustices committed toward individuals; I've been saddened by the pain some of you have suffered. I don't know too many other places where such a thing can occur all at the same time. Thank you all and thank you Ticker for bringing it up.
Etude.