I was lucky enough to have a 4-day weekend.
I spent some time working with a friend (small sign business).
Couple dinners with friends.
Steak and Ribs on the bbq
Lit my first fireworks thingy (Just a sparkler for me but we lit someother loud stuff, too)
Watched fireworks display
Best part of my weekend: Took a Motorcycle Safety Class. I go for my license in 2 weeks!! Got to find me a bike now!!!!
It was a very good weekend.
-Aude.
Aude_Sapere
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What did you do over the weekend?
by ButtLight ini was bad!
we went to our cabin friday night till sunday.
i went through 3 cases of buttlight!
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well, in our cong. service is now "expected" on Saturday.
by ?me? ina few months ago we had a local needs part about supporting the cbs field service on saturday.
it was given by a nice older elder, but what he said was pretty scary.
he used all the phrases and logic that are usually used for meeting attendance.
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What Blondie said.
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Chemo begins today
by outnfree inso, i've been sitting at the computer all night long, not really panicked, but definitely disturbed at the thought of what the months to come will entail.. the port-a-cath was "installed" (surgically) on monday, and that was tough.
somehow the lumpectomy last month and even finding out that there was lymph node involvement was okay.
scary, but okay.
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Hi Brenda -
We can still have that chat we've talked about.
I will pm you my numbers incase you've misplaced them.
I don't think you knew this about me, but I am now 7 years cancer free - Lymphoma.
I'm an odd case to begin with (haha!!) but what made me even odder was that my treatment years were the about the best of my life.
It was during my cancer fight that I was finally able to put much 'people-pleasing' behind me. I finally understood 'one'. I learned how to prioritize the importance of not wasting time and energy on things that had little value to my life.
I also had a Port-a-Cath (still have a little scar from it) and did lose my hair. Like you, I was ready with not one, but TWO wigs, an assortment of hats and caps and wraps. Funny thing was, I only wore the wig once. I learned to stand proud regardless of what others thought of me. The thing I was most concerned about ended up being the thing that - when confronted w/ reality - I conquered squarely.
I also had a tremendous support group. NOT the people that I thought would be there for me. NOT the people that I had unselfishly helped in their own times of need. NOT my parents. There were other people who I had no idea even cared a little bit, made themselves available completely to me.
That time of supposed helplessness turned out to be one of the most liberating events of my entire life. (Finding JWD is a close 2nd!!) It helped also pulling the 'cancer card' when work or people got too overwhelming. 'I have cancer. I don't need to be part of this bickering. Do I??' LOL I was a little irreverent towards my disease but that approach worked for me. Cancer treatment didn't take over my life. Treatment times were scheduled and I did not complain when appointments took longer than usual. Complaining was wasted energy.
My oncologist has become sort of a surrogate dad to me. I love him. He gave me the tools to take charge of 'my disease'. With that, I was able to own it and the through multiple modalities, put it in its place. I did some guided imagry/visualization work thru a local cancer-support group: The Wellness Community. (Gilda Radner was one of the first members) I did 6 months of chemo, 9 months of steroids, 4 weeks of daily radiation treatment and some other 'alternative' treatments. I disclosed all modalities to my oncologist. Some he agreed with and encouraged. Others he said he didn't think would help, but also didn't think they would hurt. Some would cause conflict with treatment and he carefully explained why. (ie: Why couldn't I wear a cold-cap to try to minimize hair loss???)
As far as other symptoms, there are so many meds available to counter the extreme symptoms. It's also helpful to know that each person's experience is their own. Each treatment can be have different effects on the same person. I was afraid that my reactions would get progressively worse. Not true. Some sessions were more difficult than others. My attitude played a HUGE role. So did the amount of water I drank.
I kept a little notebook handy to make note of symptoms that occured. I had my list with me when I had consultation w/ oncologist and would report all of them. Some were simple and expected others were not expected. Funny thing was that there were some that I quickly dismissed and was willing to put up with, were indicators of something that concerned him. Other things that I thought were potentially serious, were 'normal' and turned out to be transient. The point was: take note, make note. Discuss.
There are so many options and so many documented successes with cancer treatment that I hope you can find confidence in reaching a successful outcome for yourself.
This has certainly been a trying year for you!! And it's still coming at you a full force. I am sorry for that. I know it's a struggle.
My three core elements to not letting cancer take over my life:
#1. Drink plenty of water. (If you are too tired to drink, ask the dr/nurse to give you an extra bag or two of IV fluids)
#2. Stay in the moment. I found the 'moments' were really not all the that difficult. Just a very few were extremely unpleasant. Quite a few were uncomfortable or annoying but even then there was something pleasant to be had just a few 'moments' in the future. For the most part, I had some really good moments. I got real good at staying in THIS moment.
#3. Find ways to conserve energy. Throw on a terry robe after showering rather than towelling dry. Have someone carry your laundry to the machine so you can load it. (unless you want someone else to do all of it...!!!) Maybe let them move laundry from washer to dryer and then from dryer to bed or table or whatever so you can fold it. Accept help whenever it is offered. Ask for help when you need/want it.
#4. Make it a priority to have something fun to look forward. Find a way to make it happen. Let your doc know that it's important to you. (Mine: An artshow in Laguna Beach - Pagent of the Masters. My brother's wedding. A drive to the beach for sunset dinner.) You'll need to conserve energy and may need to modify normal plans. But don't give them up just because you are in treatment. (ie: My daytrip to the artshow became a 2day trip. Drove in the morning. Napped in the afternoon. Evening Performance. Sleep @ hotel. Come home the following afternoon/evening.) Simple things count too. Always have something to look forward to in the near future. Don't let chemo crowd out the important things that make your life happy everyday.
Gosh, this turned in to a really long post!!!
All I really wanted to say was: *I care* LOL
You have a pm (just my phone numbers. No 'Dear Diary' moments!!)
*Hugs* and Positive Thoughts,
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Paul Winchell, voice of Tigger, Dies
by Aude_Sapere ini remember watching him on tv back in the 60's.
turns out he live in the same town i've lived in for the past 18 years.
sure would have like to have met him... .
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I remember watching him on TV back in the 60's.
Turns out he live in the same town I've lived in for the past 18 years.
Sure would have like to have met him...
http://www.nytimes.com/2005/06/27/movies/27winc.html
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What does your name MEAN?
by RichieRich inwe all are identified by our names here on jwd.
some use their real names, and others pick a moniker that is their nickname or perhaps a few words from a song they like.. why did you pick your name?.
for instance,.
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Euph -
That's pretty close to what I've been thinking. But I have no latin training.
I'm hoping it's NOT: OWD Sap' er ray
lol
Classicist, anyone??
What is the latin pronunciation of Aude Sapere?
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What does your name MEAN?
by RichieRich inwe all are identified by our names here on jwd.
some use their real names, and others pick a moniker that is their nickname or perhaps a few words from a song they like.. why did you pick your name?.
for instance,.
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Richie -
Great thread. I'd been wanting to do this for a while but just never got to it.
When I first registered here, I was 'I_Dare' because I needed a nick and was nervous and couldn't think of one. Also, it was the answer to a question going on in my head: Do I DARE register to an apostate site?? (I really wanted to see what the 'Private' sections said because so much info was already accessible in the open sections.) My answer, of course, was: I dare.
Later that week, I was reading an article and it made reference to a latin term 'Aude Sapere' and explained that it meant 'Dare to Know; Dare to have Knowledge/Widsom. I thought that was such a fitting nick for this site because all of us Dared to Know the truth about the truth.
Thanks again for such a nice thread...!!
-Aude.
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you're probably tired of hearing about this but...
by tsunami_rid3r ini think i experienced "growing up" today at the warped tour.
first, i never drove to houston before.
second, i was taking the girl i took to prom but only b/c she asked to go with me.
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Do I understand that YOU paid for her ticket?
Then she went off with her 'boyfriend'??
Dude, you gotta stay away from this girl. You're being used. Have been for as long as you've been posting about her here.
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The troof book and the Shondells?
by IP_SEC ini've always heard the truth book aka blue bomb inspired the song crystal blue persuasion by tommy james and the shondells.. you ever heard that?
any troof to it?
dub legend?
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I heard the same thing here in california
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Corporations and the WTS
by DelTheFunkyHomosapien in.
are there any company's (big or small/ mulitnationals as well) that have an affiliation with the wts?.
are there any products that dubs are not allowed to buy from?
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There are dozens and dozens of companies that the WTS owns stock in. (someone else will have to provide a link that lists some interesting ones)
Any products that witnesses cannot buy?
Cigarettes and tobacco products are forbidden. AND YET, did you know that the Watchtower owns tobacco stock?
I was dumb-founded when I read that. (Again, someone else will have to provide the links)
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Mind Numbing stupidity are some current JW's that are on this board.
by skyman ini have had a rash of jws on this board leaving comments in my inbox telling me how mislead i am.
but what amazes me not one of them yet will analyze the facts with me.
a real discussion means nothing to them.
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Nellie -
**I think somebody should put together a key guide for us newbies.**
You asked; we (LadyLee & Jgnat) delivered:
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/32/77659/1.ashx
Copy and paste the link. Scroll around on that page and you will find MUCH info. There is another thread that Jgnat has (I can't find it right now) but it's 'punchier' in explaining the terminology.
btw:
what is nbsp? (or something like that????)
I've seen it here but can't remember where or in what context.
-Aude.