i am having trouble dealing with this little voice in the back of my head telling me that if i don't go back to meetings i won't go to the new system and everything i am doing is wrong blah blah blah.
although i have agreed to a study i believe it is more to shut up this little voice rather than because i want to be a witness again.
but if i don't go back i have to deal with this horrible feeling all the time.
OH MY GOD, That is exactly how I feel, exactly. I started studying again because of that awful guilt thing. and the fear of armageddon, which just means "mountain on Meggido" after all. and I was raised with JW parents, and a father who was just a "little" bit nuts about it all. I know exactly how you feel!!!! This web site is very helpful.
hang in there, Beth
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my brother, my sister, myself, xena and those with us walked out when we were called aside and asked not to attend the reception after the memorial.. more details to follow....... timb
What a terrible thing they did. You have my deepest sympathy.
2 1/2 years ago i met my non-jw boyfriend, and i received a shepherding call from two lovely elders who told me that i was mixing good with evil, and didn't i know the man i loved was going to die at armaggedon?
they left me in tears...not as though i left my boyfriend of course.
i've made sure that things like that don't get to me anymore.
I've heard that one before. About my kids. They say I have to love God more than my kids but I just never could get the hang of that one, LOL I love my kids more than anything.
i am so glad that i found this site.
i have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better.
my family was "in the truth" when i was little, and i feel like i really had a messed up child hood.
silly computer. Thank you all, you are all so nice. I've always had all these questions that have aways gone unanswered mabey you guys can answer some of them LOL
i am so glad that i found this site.
i have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better.
my family was "in the truth" when i was little, and i feel like i really had a messed up child hood.
i am so glad that i found this site.
i have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better.
my family was "in the truth" when i was little, and i feel like i really had a messed up child hood.
i am so glad that i found this site.
i have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better.
my family was "in the truth" when i was little, and i feel like i really had a messed up child hood.
i am so glad that i found this site.
i have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better.
my family was "in the truth" when i was little, and i feel like i really had a messed up child hood.
my opinion is that jw's are into corporal punishment more than the general population.
maybe it's my imagination, maybe not.. do you remember being told "not to spare the rod" in disciplining children?
do you remember being that kid that got beat?.
When I was little, At the meetings, I couldn't pay attention at all so I would doodle all over my watchtowers and my bible and notebooks ect ect ect. hehehehehehe.
i am so glad that i found this site.
i have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better.
my family was "in the truth" when i was little, and i feel like i really had a messed up child hood.
I am so glad that I found this site. I have been reading these posts and they have made me feel so much better. My family was "In the truth" when I was little, and I feel like I really had a messed up child hood. I have had so much guilt over holidays all my life that I've been in and out of JW congregations. I'm tired of it, tired of waiting for the end of the world and, just want to learn how to live like a normal person. I never got baptised, thankfully, so that wont be a problem. but I have a really good friend in the congregation. She has had to avoid her own children because of holidays and it makes me so sad. Thanks to this site and others, I am discovering a sense of freedom from the terrible guilt, but part of the guilt always remains no matter what. Hopefully in time, that can heal.
