Hi All,
Yes I was an elder once too... I strived hard for it. I was a bit of a hard playing, drinking young man, as were my other friends. We would go away most weekends and drink ourselves into oblivion, hardly do any door to door, a real token server. At one stage, I had a couple of discussions with two of my friends, and we decided we either had to get in properly or get out. Sdaly we chose to stay, bought into the whole mythology and then tidied up our acts. Got going door to door, answering up, being helpful and so on. In no time I was recommended as a MS.
At the same time I started courting my now wife, we got married and I kept my head down trying to please everyone. We had two children, I accepted posts serving food in the cafeteria at circuit and district assemblies, and tried to generally help run things in that department. What I didn't get was that my wife was having a real struggle. She had to manage the children, while I rubbed shouldres with the local elite! I saw this as her sacrifice, she shouldn't complain about it really, it was for GOD after all.....
Eventually the call came. Rushed to the back of the hall after the CO visit... "Do you know any reason why you shouldn't be appointed as an elder?" What do they expect you to say? This was my hopes and dreams coming true! Years invested in the process. My wife and children invested in my ambition!
Wasn't too long and I got to be on my first judicial committee! WOW the big league! Life and Death in ones hands....
then more and more, in my time as an elder, nearly 12 years I was on every JC bar one. Gutted plenty of people, sentenced them to death! Thankfully since leaving I have been able to apologize to nearly all of them.
Luckily when the time come to leave this madness, my wife and teenaged children were all in favor. They saw the light before I did. We escaped together. So what an absolute waste of time it was.
They say it is abvout serving, not about position. What BS that is [not bible study either!!!]. It is all about looking the goods, model family, family study, helping others, pleasing those men who are higher up the ladder than you. You can never be good enough.
The whole arrangement is based on mock humility. So long as no one sees you bleeding, your wife or children bleeding, so long as you can keep up the pretense, give the talks, look the part, say the right things, don't piss off the wrong people. What a massive juggling act, then some one critisizes you for some supposed misdemeanor, what was it all worth?
I am so glad to have nothing to do with it. Mind control at it's absolute worst. You will never catch the dangling carrot!!! NOt ever!