Congratulations, Terry!
It's quite an accomplishment, and you are rightfully proud of yourself. It's such a feeling of empowerment when you can get past the old programmings.
One day this past December, I saw my husband go upstairs with a box of trashbags. He kept bringing down full ones, and I couldn't imagine what he was doing. Finally I asked him, and I will always remember that triumphant look on his face when he said he was getting rid of all of our literature. We had inherited alot of old books, too. Anyway, since we are big on recycling, I questioned the bags and he answered that this was one time we weren't going to follow the rules. He wasn't taking a chance that someone else would find the books in the recycle hopper and take them home, and perhaps join the cult. (I was actually one of those that found magazines in a laundromat in college, and never forgot. I eventually joined because of those magazines, so we know it can happen.)
Of course, at that time we didn't know that there would be a market for them on Ebay as I hadn't joined this site yet to find that out, but I really don't think we would have done it. We needed to show that we had strength over them in every way. It was strange realizing what a hold they had over us. We were the type that just couldn't throw away even an extra magazine. Sheesh!
Afterward, we ere actually dancing around the house like teenagers because the whole atmosphere in the house changed. It was like a big dark cloud had blown away. It sounds wierd, but it was like we were finally cleansed. People noticed that we smiled a whole lot more, too. It was a watershed moment for us. For you, too, it sounds.
Once again, congratulations!