So you all are apostates? So why are you all so nice, funny, interesting, intelligent? Why am I more confused then ever? If you had had your signs up, I would have walked away, instead I invited myself in. I don't know what to do or how to make it to another meeting or how to face the future or how to reconcile the past. I laugh at your rebellion and I cry with your pain. I honestly don't want to believe,and I hear the ring of truth. How does one go from belief to disbelief......how does one move forward.
Posts by peggy
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12Convention apostates
by peggy in.
have any of you held with signs, yelling out at the jws as they enter the convention?.
that used to really scare me!
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Convention apostates
by peggy in.
have any of you held with signs, yelling out at the jws as they enter the convention?.
that used to really scare me!
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peggy
Have any of you held with signs, yelling out at the JWs as they enter the convention?
That used to really scare me!
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Steaming Angry - Forced to explain Shunning to my 5year old daughter!!!
by chok ini am absolutely hopping mad angry!!!!.
to those of you who know me, you are aware that i have been fading for over a year now.
i have a daughter who is 5 and a son who is 2 y. in brief iast year i separated from my husband, left the organisation, met someone else and am now expecting with my new partner.. well i have had the usual ups and downs with my jw family.
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peggy
Sometimes we get ourselves into these crazy situations. In my case I can be too open, discussing problems and not realizing what others will do with the knowledge. I was speaking about my fears for my son to my sister. He had been inactive and dating a "worldly girl", at some point his conscience got to him and he went to the elders to confess fornication. They were "merciful" and privately reproved him. In my own worried state I told my sister about it. I wish I never had. First of all it was my son's own personal business, it was disloyal to share it. I regret that. Anyway, he got back with his girl friend and is very much in love. I have come to love her as well.
We had a family dinner and I asked my other sister if my son and his girl friend could attend. He is completly inactive. She kindly said yes. When my other sister arrived, she was angry he was there. Said she didn't know if she could stay. She did though. The next day she told me that she would never do that again. He was shown mercy and has chosen the wrong path. This judgement comes from a woman who is on her third marriage! Her current husband has been married four times! They are on a "spiritual" high right now, next week, next month, next year.....who knows.
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Did You Have Aspirations In The Organization??
by minimus indid you think you could someday be a servant, an elder, a regular pioneer, a circuit overseer, etc.??
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peggy
All I can say.....and I've said it before. I was struck from the first day I found this forum that there is a hierachy here as well.
Supreme one,emperor, junior, jedi, master, senior.......I want to stay a newbie!!!!! People get excited about the move UP!
I'm gettin use to it though. Just shows that we humans want to be special!
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Brought up as a Witness
by newbie-australia ini'm a newbie to anything like this.
are most people here ex-jws?.
anyone brought up as witnesses from birth?.
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peggy
I was for the most part brought up a witness, although my dad was not. I raised my kids as witnesses, although I was liberal in my thinking. I am inactive, my husband, son, and daughter are inactive. My oldest daughter is active but very nonjudgemental. I would never shun my family, I would die for them, why would i stop speaking with them because of what they do. I know that I do not think like the average witness. Therefore I am not sure if I am truly one.
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Drinking
by peggy ini went to the meeting today.
i had to force myself to go.
i entered late, sat with a friend.
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peggy
Blondie,
I read with great interest your WT review. It is obvious you have your eyes WIDE open. You have a sharp mind, and a kind heart!
Thank you,
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Drinking
by peggy ini went to the meeting today.
i had to force myself to go.
i entered late, sat with a friend.
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peggy
Thanks for sharing all of your own personal experiences.
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Drinking
by peggy ini went to the meeting today.
i had to force myself to go.
i entered late, sat with a friend.
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peggy
Just don't know what to do with my status in the hall. I am inactive, angry, I attend meetings but listen in a completly different way. I am afraid to leave, and afraid to stay. I am in a struggle with myself. I could use a drink, well at least I fight it everyday. I have had a few falls. I went five years without a drink and all the problems of this last year have resulted in some relapse.
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Drinking
by peggy ini went to the meeting today.
i had to force myself to go.
i entered late, sat with a friend.
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peggy
Bebu, you asked how it was handled? I can't honestly say. It was information, with answers from those with the most problems. Denial is high.
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Drinking
by peggy ini went to the meeting today.
i had to force myself to go.
i entered late, sat with a friend.
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peggy
I went to the meeting today. I had to force myself to go. I entered late, sat with a friend. I wanted to see and hear how the watchtower on alcohol was handled. You see, I am an alcoholic. I began drinking at age 13. I was raised with a mother who was a/is a JW and a father who is not. I struggled with the problems in our family over religion, but made the choice to work at being a witness and got baptized at age 16. I married at 18. That is when the drinking began again. My husband was 21 and all of his friends in the cong. were in their late 20's. We spent the next 20 plus years as serious social drinkers. I have such shame over my conduct. The fact that my husband was later made an elder and he and other elder families abused alcohol. I stopped drinking six years ago, and my marriage began to fall apart. My husband continued as an elder but refused to stop drinking. I believe the other elders supported him in this. Some of those people were in the audience today.
My husband stepped down from his position of elder almost three years ago. He blamed me for this. He continues to drink, and moved out of our home March of last year. Alcohol destroyed my family.