I have moments of happiness and moments where I think I could be happier.Thankfully,being a JW isn't something that I could or ever would make me happy ever again.{not that it ever did,I was just taught {brainwashed}to believe that.}
My life is a series of small victories,peppered with some bad moments,some learning curves,some self doubt,and some strange confidence because I feel I am a walking slogan that says I don't give a crap.
I have gained relationships,lost relationships,and had some relationships that are constant.
I don't expect much out of myself or others.Life to me "is what it is ".I tend to stay in my comfort zone of happiness,which is going to the small dark pub,with a few friends,and talk about the nonsensical things in life.PLay darts,keno,go fishin,play video games.
Paradise and happiness to me is when I can wake up and say"that was fun"and I didn't hurt anyone.
In short,Ive never been happier.