I went mainly to boost my ego. No one really saw it coming even though I had been removed as a servant a few months before. When it was announced, the sister behind me literally gasped. A couple of young pioneer sisters that I was friends with had to go to the back because they were crying so hard. And one of the elders' wives (he was on my committee) and their daughter wnet home because she souldn't stop crying.
And I really was intent on going back at the point. SO I thought I would get off on the right foor by showing repentance from the get-go.