A question was asked of me last night. What made you find the forum? Which stopped me in my tracks and opened my mind to ask myself that question. Well i guess many things have brought me here. I left the organization so long ago ( at fifteen) Gave myself an education and attended the school of hard knocks but maybe lost my direction. I became focused on fixing the damages of my naive choices, and of unrealistic ideals. I skipped a few steps in life ...not being a kid..but having kids...finding a partner...not the right partner...making money..not being content with my other fortunes. I left the organization to be me and to be free to feel and express myself in many ways without feeling repressed. To open and expand our minds is continually growing in ourselves and our lives.I lost this some where. I feel like I need to find my balance, my center. I have become stagnant on a emotional and intellectual level. The one thing I swore I would never do! The last month has been a wild roller coaster ride of emotion, digging and picking of my brain and a widening of my ideals,and the make up which makes me ME! I guess i feel the need to be selfishin my life, to take risks and step out of the box. This means an intellectual war with myself. I have two girls, who I love more than life it self, but feel the need to make myself happy in order to set an example of a strong, open minded, determined and balanced person who can do anything they want to. In order for me to do this I need to let go of the mistrust, and remove the walls I've built around myself. I need to expand the possibilities and to be some where I feel safe to do so. JWD has given me the opportunity to have fun,joke, and challenge my boundaries, question myself and be free. So for any of you who wonder who I AM, here's my anserw. Someone just like you, I need love, understanding and the freedom to be myself, free of judgement, harsh judgement, and just simple. Just at the point in my life to take my experiences and turn them around and maybe pay it back. I would just like to make someone smile, or have special thought in that moment, take and help them find their balance. PAY IT FORWARD!!! So to the person that took the time to take an intrest in me. I SAY THANK YOU and hugs for making that moment in my life count. I intend to pay it forward and i guess what I'm asking is for anyone here to do the same and come back to share!
pleaseer2001
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Take my challenge
by pleaseer2001 ina question was asked of me last night.
what made you find the forum?
which stopped me in my tracks and opened my mind to ask myself that question.
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condesending, critical, narrow minded
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Anybody know these JWs in Canada?
by JustTickledPink invery curious.
this is my family, although i was raised pretty far away.. thehoefels in bc.
the gerbrandts in bc and alberta.
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pleaseer2001
Hi, Well I'am in Alberta Canada and some of the names did seem to ring a bell mostly the name Bevans. I not sure why but I do talk to my mom so i will just generally bring the names up in conversation and see what she says . I might not talk to her till Sunday but will write you with anything i find. Have a great day!
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I'm not alone
by imnottheonlyone! infor years i have felt i was the only one on earth that was reeling from my involvement with jw.
i stumbled upon this website and feel an overwhelming desire to dance.
here is my story:.
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pleaseer2001
Welcome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with hugs
I myself havn't been here long and I am sure you will find great support and many new friends. There are many here with so much to give. GREAT people!
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The "BRAG AS MUCH AS YOU WANT ABOUT YOUR KIDS" thread
by outbutnotdown inon my "backyard rink" thread some of us were bragging about our kids.
confusedjw and scootergirl shared their kids' hockey and skating successes.. i thought it would be cool to have a thread where parents (and other relatives) could post their kids' achievements as they come along.. births, first steps, first words, sports/academic achievements, etc.
i'll start:.
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pleaseer2001
This is a topic that just makes me smile!!! My kids are my world,my breath,and my balance. I have a seven year old who loves music,dance and is in a project for young artist. This is so funny because she is so good and mommy is lucky to draw a stick man! She has like way about her that brings me to tears. The youngest is under two and has kept me on my feet! She is starting to talk very well and is so fun.She has brought the world of Barney with her! O the fun! My kids teach me something new each day and I always look forward to that!
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Does The Thought of Being Disfellowshipped Bother You?
by minimus inis it realy the worst thing one can go through?
are you afraid of it??
has being disfellowshipped actually turned into a "blessing"?
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pleaseer2001
Funny I was having this thought today. I left 14 years ago and have never really looked at it, but is the one thing that will make me loose my family. I have taken great steps with gaining the outlook to DA this week,but still don't know.It doesn't change me as a person but it may make me better. I don't know.Thank you for bringing this up! Helps me work with the idea and what I need in life.
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congregational cliques
by chuckyy init was my experience during my 13 yrs as a jw that congregations usually had a social clique.
in other words, there would be a group of people in a congregation that would only associate (and sometimes only go out on field service too) with people within that social clique.
if you were in the clique, fine.
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pleaseer2001
When I was younger my parents really didn't have alot, my dad worked hard to build his buisness.I felt that their were many in the cong that pushed my family to the side. I noticed it filtered it's way to ones my own age as well. This was one of the things that made me draw closer to people who had nothing to do with the wit.Funny thing is my dad does extremly well now and guess what! They seen to have many more friends in the cong now. Funny i think!
I really dislike the thought!
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About mchl's offer in chatt
by pleaseer2001 infirst i would like to say thank you for the offer...but feel you don't understand why i myself have found this site.
i can't speak for anyone else here.there are some things i feel i would like to share with you!
i have not been part of the org for over 14 years..since i was fifteen.i have accepted the shunning,i have educated myself,and spend many years questioning myself and choicesi have made.the things i have delt with and now belive to be important in my life are things that make me love life and the people who are part of my life!
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pleaseer2001
First I would like to say thank you for the offer...But feel you don't understand why I myself have found this site. I can't speak for anyone else here.There are some things I feel I would like to share with you! I have not been part of the org for over 14 years..since I was fifteen.I have accepted the shunning,I have educated myself,and spend many years questioning myself and choicesI have made.The things I have delt with and now belive to be important in my life are things that make me LOVE life and the people who are part of my life! I was scared of my feelings and ways of thinking till I found this board, People who have made me feel welcome(unconditionally) shared their stories, and opened their hearts to me! This is the most I have felt love and acceptance in 14 years. This is not a place to save people or to put your time in. These are people with stories and hearts to share. I think it is important to support what you belive and to stand behind it, but always having respect for those you come across. Respect is something that I belive is earned not just given. So if you feel the need to share your forum all the power to you but have Respect. Go to all the chatt rooms all over not this one, looking to save or teach me something. I don't need articals to teach me, life has already done that! I love my life....and the new people who are now part of it.
If we looked in a mirror, would you see a smile without question OR
Look in a mirror,and not seeing reality ,choice, and unconditional understanding.
Who's Lost you or Me???
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Brief Introduction
by frozen one inthought i would join the forum after following the posts for a while.
i used to post on tishie's x-jw site but have not participated there for a while.
anyway, i was born into the religion...cult...borg...whatever.
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pleaseer2001
Hello and Welcome!
I think the harley pic is cool!
Fatboy or Springer?
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Please Read!
by Doe inif you guys are witness.
did any of you bother to find out if bethel approved this website????????.
if you have looked on some of these topics to choose from you would know that witness are neutral on topics on political debts.
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pleaseer2001
Talk to the elders?????????
They didn't listen the first time round why would they now!!!!
Please, It's just to scare anyone who might be making a CHOICE!!!!!!!