I still have stinking nightmares once in a while about the earth opening up, concentration camps, persecution. I have it all straightened out in my mind in the awake world, but in my sleep, those pics still do a number on me.
Sparkplug
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Paradise Lost Paradise Regained / The Terror Pages
by prophecor in.
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did those pictures of people jumping outta' thier graves not scare the $#!+ outta' you?
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Hi guys, I'm new...
by bitemeWT ini grew up in a "divided household" in missouri.
i suspect my mother had post partum depression when jws knocked on her door.
she fell for it hook, line, and sinker.
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Sparkplug
Bite me- Yes. I was in St James. I go to Joplin and St James each year.
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Oh this is sooo good, I had to share it with everybody...
by zagor inreading below article it finally dawned on me why wtbs is so successful regardless of how much crap they can spill out.
the secret is no matter what they say they say it with authority.
so anyone not knowledgable in the subject simply assumes "well if they speak with such a conviction they have to be right, right?
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Sparkplug
Ok, I looke d at the pictures and I about got sick. I know that is not what you were directing us to, but I really feel ill. It was only about 5 seconds worth, but it just made me feel so violated. So creepy. How did I spend all of my youth seeing such stupid ass licking pictures and not find them strange? I actually handed that crap to people. Gag...
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Hi guys, I'm new...
by bitemeWT ini grew up in a "divided household" in missouri.
i suspect my mother had post partum depression when jws knocked on her door.
she fell for it hook, line, and sinker.
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Whats the worst dish you ever served???
by Tez ini am a reasonable cook when i can be bothered (as paulj will hopefully confirm) but often resort to quick and easy methods, packet mixes, tins etc.. whereas my parner is a brilliant cook!!
leave him in the kitchen for a little while and he produces something from scratch that is delicious.
so today i decided to extend my culinary skills!
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Sparkplug
I had a Thanksgiving dinner and a guest brought stuffing. Well Not being used to stuffing...I did not know you had to bake it.. So I just served it how it was. People poured warm gravy on it, so I guess it did not seem cold.
I kept thinking that it was the crappiest stuffing I had ever tasted, but I did not want to offend the lady who brought it. Finally, after everyone ate, she decided she would have just a little of what she brought. Well she about died, and I was so embarrased. We all had a great laugh. Now I make the stuffing. (make sure it is cooked) I have about 7 or 8 Thanksgivings under my belt now.
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Why some people leave and live and then it hits them
by Lady Lee ini've read a few posts lately where the people got out of the jws and went off to live their lives.
i went to college almost immediately.
it was hard and sometimes i would think about it and maybe going back.
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Sparkplug
One thing I noticed when working with abuse survivors was that once they got out of their families they didn't want to even think about the abuse. They just wanted to have a chance to live.
I would have to say that I noticed this too. It was kind of backwards to how you described it for me. Looking back, at first it was all about survival. I had too much faith in people to be angry and I was so naive that I really could not believe that I was not as bad as I was told I was. I still thought and wholeheartedly believed I was not good enough.
Then I acted out in a wave of confusion and made a big mess of my life. This time thinking that for the entire price I had paid, and then I might of well have gotten into some trouble and had some so called worldly fun while I was at it.
But then there are those who at some point it just hits them. All the anger, abandonment due to the shunning, the loss of family and good friends. It can be overwhelming.
Then after making a mess and acting the way a lot of people would act having come from such a "whacked out” world, well then I woke up and realized it was not me, and I really was not all that they had said. I learned to accept the life I had been given and I saw that despite of it all or maybe TO spite it all I had succeeded. I cried a lot. I got help thru the depression.
I stopped all the crazy things I would do and I learned to like myself. That was something I had never learned to do. It is hard to like yourself when from a child on up, you have been treated as a really foul red-headed stepchild. Like something to be tolerated...people can be so cruel. This was before being disfellowshipped too when the shunning began. I can remember it as far back as 7 or 8 years old.
If you don't fit as a witness, you may as well as expect to be disfellowshipped. Just walk away. There is a whole world out there that can take you in. Sad thing is many people do not see past what is here and now. I strongly admonish anyone who is still in, and feels like they cannot fit...just turn and leave it. Each one of you is worth so much more. One day of unconditional love is worth so much more than all of the half assed love that is given out of duty.
You know, loving yourself, and loving your life feels so good. Now when people I make relationships with accept me be it a good or a bad past, it makes it all the more special. No pretentiousness and no lies. Just love. And I can have a bad day and people still love me. I can get tootled and make bad moves sexually and I don't have to pay for the rest of my life beyond the risk that anyone takes being stupid. I don't have to loose everyone I know when I make a bad decision.
What have you done to deal with the surfacing issues and feelings?
I would suggest anyone go to a counselor. Once you find out what you are prone to do, it is easier to avoid it. It looses some of the appeal when all the crazy behavior is predictable. It makes the process a lot less hurtful and seeing we had a whole organization brainwash us for years, what is the harm and getting some help to see where the programming happened and get the tools to turn it all around.
It makes the process a lot easier with some help.
I personally did it all backwards and have repercussions I have to take now due to my actions and being uninformed. So avoid the EXTRA HURT if you can and go talk to a counselor, psychiatrist, companion that was not a witness, or one that has it figured out. Think about it. They have spent many a year learning how to help people that were twisted and abused like us. We spent our time knocking on doors and they spent their time learning how to help victims become survivors, and productive parts of society.
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Anyone in, or know much about military service
by devinsmom inthis question is in relation to my situation w/ my ex husband.
you can read about it here: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/91278/1.ashx.
since then he still has not paid any support and currently owes me approx.
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Sparkplug
Oh yeah, he got out a couple of years ago and now he pays on time. This was back in 96-2002 or 2004 I could not get any help.
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Anyone in, or know much about military service
by devinsmom inthis question is in relation to my situation w/ my ex husband.
you can read about it here: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/91278/1.ashx.
since then he still has not paid any support and currently owes me approx.
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Sparkplug
Oh and in order for them to take him, I had to sign a paper saying that while he is in basic...6 months, I would waive it (his amount owed) and that when he was out I would get payments and I never did for close to 4 years. If they ask you to sign, I would see a lawyer, but something about that paper kept me from getting the money even longer than the 6 months. Like you I had a garnish on his wages and had just started getting some support when he went in. When he went in, I saw nothing. Raise a huge stink. Squeaky wheel really applies in this situation. The military will treat you right if you can get attention drawn to your situation.
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Anyone in, or know much about military service
by devinsmom inthis question is in relation to my situation w/ my ex husband.
you can read about it here: http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/91278/1.ashx.
since then he still has not paid any support and currently owes me approx.
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Devinsmom- My ex husband joined the marines and the story sound so familiar. I have to tell you though. I have no idea how to get it out of them. It was like they hid him. I have heard that if you can find his superior officer or write the govenor...repeatedly, they do not like the publicity. Also ther is something. It has something to do with living allowance. He will probably get that for having a son with you. My ex did and I never saw it. It is something like a rent payment. You do not have to be married to get it and you also should recieve a card to shop VERY cheap on bases and have medical paid. I would highly recomend a call directly to his superiors. He will be in a lot of trouble for not paying though. Let me look and see how I fianally got mine caught up. He was behind roughly 5000 and one day I started getting checks for about 800-1000 a month till he was caught up.
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Technically, it's not a miracle. But it IS a miracle for me.
by bebu inthe neurosurgeon called it glioblastoma.
the radiologist affirmed it was glioblastoma.
--glioblastoma is the brain cancer tumor that they diagnosed for my mother last friday from her mri results.
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Bebu- I am so happy for you. Now I wish that she did not have the other, but I do understand the reasoning! So Rejoice gal, and be happy... as it is said, "Drink with Me!"
one small knock coes not mean we cannot smile!