I felt like that too, OP.
I decided to resolve it by reading the Bible, front to back, in order, without the aid of publications. Just the bare truth of what the book says.
I got done and my faith was weaker than ever. Baby killing, rapes, kidnapping, approved slavery, torture, racism, misogyny, hatred and evil of all kinds--all approved by both Jesus and Jehovah.
So I thought I just lacked faith, and made myself read it again, front to back.
By the time I got into early Revelation, I realized it was as whack as whack gets. It is not a holy, harmonious book inspired by a loving being. When I shut the back cover for the last time, I was done.
The great thing about doing that is you know you gave it your best shot. You will never regret or feel as though somebody else influenced you.