You got yourself out of bad situations and improved your life. Yay you!
Take a step back. Try to remove the emotion, what you want to believe and what you've been taught.
Let me save you the work. Here is what you will inevitably conclude:
- The Bible is a collection of works from many different individuals.
- It does indeed contradict itself.
- It does indeed endorse hate, violence, rape, and other sorts of nasty things--Greek and Hebrew scriptures alike. (You can find a list of citations at evilbible.com. Then look them up in the New World Translation.)
- There is and never has been any evidence of the existence of any supernatural beings.
- The most important things a human being can do are these 2 things: (1) Be a good person and contribute positively to society. (2) Live a life worth living. This includes using your brain and your whole self in good, fulfilling ways.
- If Jehovah is worth worshiping, and one day he decides to make his existence known, he'll be so happy to find you enjoying the gift he gave you (life). If not, you still win!