I knew moment he was no longer around, wish I could turn the time back but I can't. Eventually I ended up with a "decent witness boy" but my heart and mind were always with one that slipped away. IT is funny how some decisons come to haunt you years later.
I can really concur with this sentiment although with some differences.
For me it was a friendship that became much stronger, through the passage of time it was so apparent that we connected on so many levels that I knew I was in danger of falling if I let myself. I wasnt ready for this in fact I was fresh out of an existing relationship. But despite this, I knew I couldnt not go with my feelings - I had little choice in the matter really; we connected on a physical level (shes gorgeous), we connected emotionally and our spiritual paths were completely in sync albeit different. We could talk for hours about complete bollocks or for hours about more deeper things and time just flew. We had so many areas of common ground it was like we had lived parallel lives in fact our previous lives almost mirrored each other - even to the extent of having the same reoccuring nightmare as a child! Speaking of dreams I remember in my dreams when I was younger there was always a girl with dark hair and blue eyes who would appear at some point and there would be a connection but I wasnt sure who it was or what this meant; It was only later when flicking through old photographs of Dawn that I realised who it was that had appeared on so many occasions. On a more grounded level we agree on such a lot; although where we disagree we are not afraid to challenge each other- she helps me see things in a different light. Where there was previous pain we healed each other and still do. Where historically there were diffulties there is now sanctuary and as she has mentioned above, it feels like 'home I shouldve known from my first breath'. I reciprocate the fact that there is nobody I would rather be with; I miss her when I am not with her; I would be honoured to be the father of her children. Gary