Welcome Franki,
I was raised a JW, never baptized. My dad is an MS.
I know you are scared but you have a right to be happy, if you decide to leave it won't be easy, but through the forum you will see lot's of people who can sympathize with you, that make it a little better.
Just some friendly advice: I would not tell anyone in your family that you go on these boards unless you want real trouble.
Dragonlady76