i know there are alot of xjws mainly b/c the religeon is so strict
Daisy, it might surprise you that there are MANY people who chose to leave the jw, or not become jw, because as loyal Christians they don't agree with their teachings. Not all refuse to become jw because they don't want to be apart of such a "strict" religion. In many ways, I am more strict and serious about my faith than many JW I know.
I would be happy to talk to you about some of the things I object to about the religion.
Let me ask you something. Are you thinking you should join this religion because you think it's "strictness" will keep you from making any more mistakes?
What do you think it says about a person's faith if they need a "strict" religion to keep them in line. Shouldn't you do what you do out of love for God, not because someone is telling you how strict they need to be?
Ultimately the most important message of the Bible is how to build a relationship with God, through Christ. To do that all you have to do is believe in God, believe He sent His son to die for YOUR sins, and repent. This is of course a journey not a process.
Keep in mind, repentence does not mean you no longer sin. EVERYBODY sins. It means the Holy Spirit lives in you, and as a result of His efforts (not yours), you no longer are in rebellion towards God. You sin because you are imperfect, are mistaken, or have moments of weakness, not because you want to disobey God.
The above description is completely scriptural. Please tell me where in there, you need to include membership to a particular group to gain salvation. The truth is, you don't.