Cordial welcome, Truth.Seeker!!!
Most of us have been where you are now. The fact that you are willing to take responsibility for your beliefs, rather than simply accepting what you have been told as "Truth", is very commendable. No doubt you will encounter certain challenges in the immediate future as you continue your seeking of truth, but feel assured that you will find many blessings as well.
Might I suggest you take a peek at "quotes.watchtower.ca"? Perhaps it will help you get a somewhat different perspective regarding the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society. Nothing "apostate" there, only quotes from the Society's publications....