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  Trying to get to know people on the JWD

  by cindykp in

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  2. friends

  i havent been here that long, and just trying to get to know a little more about the people im chatting with.

  i know some dont want to share too much info, which i understand.

  so.............im divorced, have 3 kids, lived in florida for 15 years, now back home in wi.

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  Thinking

  My name is ...If I tell ya, I'd have to kill ya!!!!
  
  I am divorced for 17 years now, not attached.
  
  5 kids.....fours boys, youngest is a girl...uggggggg!!!!
  
  No, not gay.
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  My bit of an introduction

  by Thinking in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  in a very short time here i have truely appreciated the openess of the people that post here.

  the ability to share thoughts and feelings in a most respectful and honest way.

  i have been thankful to be validated with alot of what i was feeling and thinking with some things regarding the jw experiance.

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  Thinking

  In a very short time here I have truely appreciated the openess of the people that post here. The ability to share thoughts and feelings in a most respectful and honest way. I have been thankful to be validated with alot of what I was feeling and thinking with some things regarding the JW experiance.
  At this time I am sorting out my thoughts and feelings. I love to hear about others but rarely tell about myself.
  
  
  I thought it was only fair and time to tell a bit about myself. I was baptised in my late twenties. I was in a horribly abusive marriage with little support from my family. I was looking to God for answers and started to read the bible not understanding much of what I read. I was raised Catholic. I began to reach out and go to various churches. They all seemed a bit nuts and could not answer my questions. One day I got a knock at my door and had a very nice discussion with a woman who was very knowledgable and I agreed to a bible study weekly. I asked....."What religion are you?" Jehovah Witnesses she said. I said.....you could have told me you were any religion but JW's I have and Aunt that is JW, and we always thought she was a bit strange. So, I am one of the rare ones found door-to-door.
  
  I bought in to everything. When I did have doubts, my teacher would encourage me to go on with the lesson and wait for all the puzzle pieces to fit. So, trusting her I did.
  
  To keep this from being a book, I will skip all the DF part and me working my way back. Although, the experiance of being DF made me realize that elders were just imperfect men and not the GODS they are portrayed to be and I never looked to any humans as I once did after that.
  
  I worked very hard out in the world and found out I was not going to be the scum from the bottom of the earth that I was told. That all morals would go out the window. I found out I was very decent and my standards were high.
  Although, I did enjoy drinking and partying alot....hehe....but I am sure that is the result of unhappy marriage and newly divorced.
  
  Now all these years later I am back and of course it is different. I do and always find very loving people in the org. Only a very few that are real people though. Recently, I was sitting in a meeting and looked around and the people there and thought to myself, If these are the people I have to be in paradise with ......I don't want to be there!!!! So, I thought ..Ok Widen out. Well, by doing that I have now mostly stopped going to the meetings. It was better for me to have my little fantasies of how perfect everyone was.
  
  All the things you bring up here I have thought about. The blood issue.
  I did not give it a great deal of thought till they did the blood fraction thing. And I was like ...How crappy is that .... to change the view. I never knew one thing about the 607 date thing but find that enlightening too.
  I have order COC book and it should be in soon. I am anxious to read it.
  
  I have many things going on. Elder friends that are dropped out of the truth completely. My daughter is in counselling, she will no longer go to the meetings. I will say this, there was a time when she was reaching out in the congo for friends. An elders niece especially. My daughter kept saying ........Really she does not want to have anything to do with me. Later I found out her father said not to associate with my daughter. My heart dropped and I never made my daughter go back. I find the way the youth is dealt with so treacherously very treacherous....lol. I think if a kid is at a meeting, you should bang the drum, sound the horn and be thankful they are there, no matter what they wear or even if they seem to wonder off in their thoughts, I mean afterall they are supposed to be where the holy spirit is and if Jahs spirit is really there, why would saying hi to another youth be bad association. Where else but the hall could you be the most protected from wickedness?
  
  I have much to be thankful for concerning my witness experiance. But even this week I find it odd in my search again for GOD. Of all places a bailbonds business( I hade to bail someone out this week) I was in a discussion with a very humble man with huge knowledge of the bible and was reminded of God's love ......his unconditional love for us (mankind) and felt the heavy burden of what I feel at the Kingdom Hall lifted. I would love to be with a man like him in Paradise. He is married with 5 kids and was not cunfused at all about his beliefs and love for his fellow man. He did not need any organization to tell him what to think or feel or believe. And I feel certain he did not talk to me untill 2am so he could turn in time.
  
  Thanks again for letting me be here. My personality is mostly to observe. I don't think I am a troll. I am not as smart as most here and I am not making a stand one way or another.. I am a person first and only wanted to find a place of peace and love. I am still searching and hopefully still growing in that direction.
  
  Love to all who are true to thierselves as that is the only way to find the answers.
  
  One more thing this bailbondsman told me.......I told him that no one was very happy I was getting this person out of jail. He said Unconditional love is never popular. Something to thing about.
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  AJWRB - New article

  by Lee Elder in

  1. watchtower
  2. medical

  ajwrb has published a new article regarding the wts most recent comments regarding their blood policy.

  the article can be viewed online:.

  http://www.ajwrb.org/review6-15-04.shtml.

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  Thinking

  Thanks for posting and I bookmarked the site.
  
  I remember when the fraction article came out being at a gathering of witnesses And getting into a very heated arguement. I found it very wrong to accept fractions and not contribute to the supply.
  
  And felt very sorry for my dear friend in Canada that lost her fiance for refusing blood and now all she has, the abiblity to say he made a stand for the truth. And now........What really is the truth? Poor Family.
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  Things I love about Texas

  by IP_SEC in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  being that it's such an auspicious day for the great state.. things i love about texas.. 1. shiner bock.

  2. san antonio.

  3. corpus christi.

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  Thinking

  Sheryl Crowe is gonnna have something to say about that.
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  Things I love about Texas

  by IP_SEC in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  being that it's such an auspicious day for the great state.. things i love about texas.. 1. shiner bock.

  2. san antonio.

  3. corpus christi.

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  Thinking

  They have great drag boat races at Marble Falls
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  Remembering that we are dust.......

  by Thinking in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  today i was studing for tonights book study lesson.

  i got hung up on this paragraph.

  i don't know why but something about the wording just does not sound right.

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  Thinking

  tah Narkissos
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  Things I love about Texas

  by IP_SEC in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  being that it's such an auspicious day for the great state.. things i love about texas.. 1. shiner bock.

  2. san antonio.

  3. corpus christi.

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  Thinking

  The Hill Country.
  Guadalupe River.
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  Anyone wanna pick apart the special talk?

  by IP_SEC in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  why did jesus suffer and die?.

  did anyone want to pick apart the special talk?.

  geez this thing is more of a manuscript than outline.

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  Thinking

  So, there is nothing special about the special talk.
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  How is your congregation doing financially?

  by truthseeker in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  if you still go to the meetings - look at the notice board where they have the accounts report.. is there a deficit?.

  our cong wanted to build a new hall (they share), but they cannot raise the funds to do this.

  did your cong pay bills on time, i.e.

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  Thinking

  I have never seen anything posted about our finances at the hall. Only announcement and the way he reads it I can never tell if we have money or not.
  Because he always says we have a deficit and then he will name off some bills and then what was collected and blah blah blah.......its all very confusing
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  National Average = Quotas

  by zack in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  the national average for publishers reporting feild service time in the untited states is just under 10 hours a month.

  this has become the de facto standard for every member of the congregation.

  if one fails to produce at the rate of others, he is "weak", his service is "divided", he puts the things of "this life" in "first place.".

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  Thinking

  This is the problem - the WTS aren't really requiring what you can reasonably do, they want you to simplify your life, and go beyond just doing what you can fit in the week
  
  
  
  
  I went to as many meetings as I possibly could. Making meeting attendance was top priority in all my decision making. I sacrificed all I could. When I did that, then I started taking ungrateful sisters to the meetings. I could see that no matter how much I gave up and gave "spiritually" was never going to be enough.
  My only hope was to marry someone that could allow me not to work altogether so I could pioneer.
  Putting in more time in door-to-door will not make me more spiritual or closer to GOD. It does not make you a better person and it certainly does not qualify you to move up in responsiblity.
  well that is just my opinion.