Hi Karly I understand your fear of being found out.
I am from Australia and had those same fears initially. I have faded from the organisation and I was so scared of the repercussions of being found out.
We are here to help. Feel free to share with us. Or PM those you feel comfortable with. We understand your background and that alone can help a lot.
I hope you are okay you sound distressed and I am concerned for you.
Please let us know how you are going.
Miss Peaches