LV101:
It’s true what you say that Kingdom Halls were big cliques! I even felt that they had a bias against people not born-in - and that was on top of everything else!
Besides my job, I was criticized over clothing and had to hide my figure more. So, I was on the sh#t list early on.. I should have taken this as a warning and gotten the hell out early on - but I made a few friends and was optimistic!
So, I dressed more ‘modestly’ 🙄. But, I would not quit that job - so I was on the fringes of the congregation. There were some in the hall who I sensed had an ‘aversion’ to me but I paid no mind.
I suppose I would have had a lot of hurt feelings but being raised outside and having a ‘normal’ childhood (and working) gave me a thick skin. I suppose I wasn’t ‘seeking’ approval of other people since I already had self-esteem and knew who I was - something born-ins maybe did not have.
I suppose this is the benefit of a non-Witness upbringing and I’ve got to tell you it is priceless. After the 1995 Generation thing and me doing research (at work on my computer), I discovered TTATT and the mountain of information about the JW religion. I reconnected with old friends and relatives before it was too late. Priceless. I was able to deconstruct the silly teachings in my mind and I planned the day I would start my ‘Fade’.
I love telling my story on the Forum because the JWs are a secretive and hypocritical religion and expect somebody to go away quietly. I refused because the world and all the newbies who lurk here deserve to hear what goes on there!!!