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  I had an odd day today......

  by love11 in

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  i finished my spring semester of schooling!

  yay!

  i got a call from my sister saying that she was arrested and in jail for 3 days for domestic violence.

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  I talked to my friend today and she said that her dad invited her over to stay with them in their spare bedroom!

  I'm curious............did they have a talk recently on how to get disfellowshipped people back in the congregation. Because it just seems a little weird to me that both me and my friend are having this experience. When devils turn into angels, watch out!

  I don't know what caused this act of kindness with my mom, but I'm glad she didn't act her old self in front of my kids.

  I remember when I lived at her house after I was dsf and I had to wait to eat after the rest of them ate. Now she's inviting me out for breakfast and lunch. Also, we were invited to go to the zoo on Monday.

  I'm just riding this wave until I figure out what's going on.
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  I had an odd day today......

  by love11 in

  1. social
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  i finished my spring semester of schooling!

  yay!

  i got a call from my sister saying that she was arrested and in jail for 3 days for domestic violence.

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  It was the most normal, peaceful day I have ever experienced with my mom. A part of me wanted to say, "Who are you, and what did you do with my mom?" I even mentioned that I had a membership at the YMCA and she said that she might consider getting one too! What the? When I was a kid we couldn't even look at the Y because that is where the devil wants us to stray away from him! Then she even said, "Have you ever considered moving to Florida? I think you would really like it, and we could get together alot more." That left me speechless, but I somehow was able to say, "No, I think that we were going to stay around here for awhile or maybe move to California if we could afford it."

  We went to IHOP, then to Toy's R' Us, the mall, then to Wendy's, my house, and then to a YMCA camp ground. I didn't want her to spend money on me and the kids but we almost had a tense situation in front of the waitress, so I agreed reluctantly. All in all though, it was a healing day for me.

  When I first saw her get out of the car, I was taken back. She had gray hair and alot of wrinkles. When I last saw her she was in her 50's and now she's a senior citizen! I just felt sorry for her that she made so many bad decisions in her life that she made herself miserable, thinking that's what god wanted her to do. I'm grateful to her that she gave birth to me, because of her I have life and my children. I know with every fiber of my body that I will never have the mother/ daughter relationship that every person should experience. But I understand and forgive her for not being capable of being a good parent. I only hope that I live up to my daughter and son's expectation of what a mom should be like. At lunch, I told her that my house was messy to warn her before coming in. (I pushed all my house chores aside until I finished this week of school, it's amazing how one week of not cleaning looks like hell) Anyways, then my sister spoke up and said," Well....also, you spend more time with your kids then anyone I know. I think it's better to spend time with them then to spend your whole life cleaning the house." My mom said, "They say, your children will leave but you'll always have house work." Then she seemed a little sad.

  Tonight, when my husband got off work we all went to Koto Buki for some japanese food. It was a great ending to my day. Love
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  I had an odd day today......

  by love11 in

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  i finished my spring semester of schooling!

  yay!

  i got a call from my sister saying that she was arrested and in jail for 3 days for domestic violence.

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  Oh! And I found a catapillar in my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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  I had an odd day today......

  by love11 in

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  i finished my spring semester of schooling!

  yay!

  i got a call from my sister saying that she was arrested and in jail for 3 days for domestic violence.

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  love11

  In short-

  I finished my spring semester of schooling! YAY!

  I got a call from my sister saying that she was arrested and in jail for 3 days for domestic violence. (She's the one I told you about that isn't quite right from all the drugs and years of abuse.) She doesn't even remember it, just bits and pieces.

  Then I went to the park with my kids. I was sitting on the bench with my dog (avatar pic) and this young guy came up to me and asked what kind of dog that was. Then he said that he had a pug that scared a jw away once. Apparently, the dog charged at the door because the guy wouldn't leave and he got mad. The guy went running after that, because he though it was a big dog. hehe

  Then I called my other sister to get the "real" story on what happened to the sister that went to jail. I guess she was flipping out because her son wouldn't give her any drugs. She tried to choke him and his friend. She punched them so hard that it made their mouths bleed and they didn't even fight back.

  Then she said,"Mom, wants to talk to you." My mom is visiting here from florida and wants to see me. It's been like 7-8years since I've seen or heard from her. The last time we spoke she told me, "If you and your kid are not going to be in the paradise then I might as well get used to it now." She said that me and all of my offspring would perish at armaggedon. So she gets on the phone and acts like nothing has happened. She invited me to go get some breakfast tomorrow at IHOP. .........weird............ So I returned the weirdness and said in the most serious of voices, "Ok, and afterwards lets all go to the lake and go swimming, it's a really nice lake, you'd like it." She said, "I'll have to see how it goes." Whatever that means. She's never even seen my son and he's 5. My daughter is now 9, the last time she saw her was at 1 1/2 years old.

  I don't know what to make of it, but my curiousity is pricked. This should be the most interesting IHOP experience I've ever had. LOL

  I'll let you know what happens!
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  no stones please!

  by almosthome in

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  i am hoping a little balance is allowed here, or at least the coin's flip side.

  this is my story so far, but i am fairly sure it is going to end up a bit differently than most i have read on your site.

  the brothers couldn't help my husband, he didn't want help.

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  Everyone has a unique way of finding inner peace. Yours may be being a jw gives you peace. (Although...it doesn't sound that way from your past experiences)

  Sorry, I can't remember who said this quote- If we don't learn from the past, we are bound to do it again. (it goes something like that)

  Have you considered that maybe your euphoric state of peace could be due to other things happening in your life at the same time. Such as- You are gaining stability with a good husband and a home. Also, the witnesses provide alot of friends. (Mostly because of love bombing and because they are taught that the outside world is evil, so they tend to make the friends they see at the kh more like family.)

  I'm sorry that you can't seem to get your life together without the assistance of one huge commune. But if it works for you, then I'm happy that you've found what you are looking for- a place to belong. However...this path you have chosen is not for everyone.

  Hopefully your four kids will find the peace that the kh offers as well. If not......be prepared to lose your children at some point. I know my children are both very unique. My daughter is stubborn and won't let anyone tell her what to do. (She's a tauras, and I love her for it!) I never would want to break her spirit to make her be who I am. That is what will have to happen if you expect your children to be a jw when they grow up. More than likely.........Your children will grow up and decide to be catholic in their adult years. All of the witness friends that you and the children once had will not be around for you when that happens, since you will be marked as spiritually weak. I hope you're ready for one more traumatic event in your life, because going back guarantees it. I'm sorry to just lay it out there like that, but it's the truth.

  Whether you go to the kh or not, you are going to have ups and downs in your life. Learn to deal with your problems head on instead of running to the security of your childhood. That is the hard road.

  Well....... that's my 2 cents. Honestly.....I wish you the very best. Love
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  My Mother

  by funes in

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  i was disfellowshipped when i was 16, it really isn't clear because i stopped going to meetings, left home, etc.

  i was 28 before i truly stopped believing and have grown to love every day of life i've had the privilege to live.

  my mother was a missionary, my brother lives at one of the farms, one of my sisters is a special pioneer overseas and my other sister is a special pioneer in the states.. .

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  Your story is a wonderful example of unconditional love that you have toward your mother. If they only knew.

  I believe to get reinstated you are going to have to go to meetings regularly until you are trusted and let back in. After that, then you can start a gradual fade. It may take months or years, depending on how stubborn they are. Just make sure that when you are reinstated that you sit in the back still and don't talk to alot of people. Don't become popular in other words. Out of sight out of mind. IMO
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  Jehovah

  by minimus in

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  when you see that name----what's your reaction?

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  Instantly a picture of an old god pops into my head. One that needs alot of animal and human sacrifices!
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  I Think I'm Falling Away..

  by Englishman in

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  i'm starting lots of posts lately.

  trouble is, i'm not finishing them.

  i get a bee in my bonnet, start to type furiously, sometimes with 2 fingers instead of 1, then i just lose interest and cancel the whole shebang.. maybe it's just a phase i'm going through.

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  Maybe talking about the jw's is getting old with you because it's becoming less and less a part of you.
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  Visiting graves . . . did you do it?

  by garybuss in

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  today we had a nice road trip and visited two cemeteries where grandparents and aunts and uncles are buried.

  we usually make the yearly trek on memorial weekend but this year we helped my son move and were out of town.

  it's an upbeat day.

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  I didn't go and visit anyone I ever knew. But as a young adult, if I ever was driving around and needed a good cry I would pull into a cemetary. That seems like the only place that it's ok to cry in public and I just figured at the time, they were the only people who wouldn't judge me.

  As a child I used to visit my great grandparents home every weekend, yet when they died we never went to see their graves except for the actual funeral. That always seemed really cold to me.
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  Alright, convince me of the benefits of marriage

  by JW83 in

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  someone?!

  anyone?

  !

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  You get to deduct more on your taxes!