gordon,
hi my man. i read your explanations of your experience in transformation. i find them interesting. very much so. you appear to be very at peace with the place you have come to. and this i am happy for you for.
i can say this with good intentions toward you, because i too believe that i have had similar experiences, though in my interaction with the divine i have in the end only found nature, and manifestations of universe-nature, whatever they may...natural none-the-less. and in this power, i as a human hold to two states of mind simultaneously, without reservation or guilt: in one hand my biology, and in the other my sphere of consciousness. in one hand the empirical mind of self consciousness, bloating ever outward in structural abstraction, and in the other hand the trembling child's-mind of a new consciousness shaped as it is like a flower, and bathed in light that is not so much described as a color, as much as the understanding that it is just so, Light.
i believe that when people describe their interactions with God, and the oneness and peace associated with these experiences, they are describing an awakening in themselves to their true nature, their true identity as god's themselves. in one world it is called evolution to another sphere of consciousness, just as we have evolved in the past to the one we inhabit now. and in other worlds, it must be described in other ways, and i will let them represent themselves if they are indeed any different than i. but peoples interactions with this state of consciousness cannot, and should not, be mistaken for divine interaction with anything other than that which has divinely manifested itself in you, by you. nature. your true nature. universe nature. oneness nature. but still nature.
when i say that i am an atheist, i believe that by extension this makes me a pantheist. i hold the divine nature of nature, to be just that, natural. and in so doing, find a venerable place of existence where what i thought was the incarnation of God, is actually an evolved incarnation of mySelf, human man, at this most paradoxically true moment in this part of the universe. and universe = nature. and nature = god because i am being in nature myself, along with the trillions of other living gods on this planet temple, namely everything that is in existence here.
if you see light, remember that it comes from your self awakened mind. and remember who gave it to you, because this is where the light shines from the brightest: You. with peace and awareness of oneness, You will reflect this light from the places where your known consciousness intersects with unknown places inside You. and with an understanding of you-nature in relation to universe-nature, You will help our species the most my friend.
i'm sorry if this thread has not gone the way you intended it. but i do hope you will stick around to talk further, if your intention is to truly understand with greater clarity your experience of being born again as seen through the eyes of other humans who have gone through similar journeys, or are in said process.
evolution, peace, sentience, love,
tetra