i know exactly how you feel. I lived in a neighborhood full of jw's. They would always drive by my house and ring my bell just because......they are some of the nosiest people ever..the funny thing is when you really are in need of help then your on your own or they tell you to pray to jah....now that i'm out i hardly ever see anyone but i still feel like there are a million eyes watching me.
swiftbreeze
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Frustration
by Chia init just blows my mind.
i am an adult, and i can't go out without getting the third degree.
i can't have a phone/internet conversation without being interrogated and/or watched.
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Evil Lives Monday, April 11, 2005
by apocalypse inevil lives
monday, april 11, 2005
-if ever in your mind you wonder as to whether the leadership at watchtower has some level of sincerity, or perhaps as you move deeper into your pursuit of the real truth, you find yourself having doubts that you are doing the right thing in "doubting" the watchtower ?then read on.
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swiftbreeze
Being one of the rank and file...now that i look back there were many times at assemblies, meetings etc..that i said to myself "wait a minute that doesnt sound right" but then would get lulled back to sleep. I recall the supposed meaty "talks" given at the convention were often the next to the last "talk" on the program. Many people were physically and mentally tired not really paying attention let alone checking the information to see if it's true. i used to wonder why would they put the most important information at the end. i would think such info should be given first when people are alert and well rested Like i said above a person will come across info that you feel doesnt sound right but then fall back to sleep(mentally that is).
we need information like this to be constantly posted. at least i do, because i often find myself reverting back because WT was the only thing i knew.
thanx
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What movies have you seen that make you want to be a better person?
by confusedjw in.
the movie "to sir with love" had that effect on me years ago.. .
what movie has inspired you & why?
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swiftbreeze
woman art thou loosed
i have many others but i can't think my crazy husband is playing the music really loud right now and i can't think....
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A neat site for all you job seekers out there!
by Eyebrow2 inhey there...here is a cool site...sort of like the google for job searches.... http://www.indeed.com/.
it will bring up recent job postings from several job boards, including newspapers etc.... to get the most out of your search, click on advanced search you can even search by company, location etc.
and the stuff it brings back is in a nice, neat format.
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swiftbreeze
Thank you sooooooo very much! I was just thinking about posting a subject about job searching...wondering if anyone had some advice or any tips. The site is easy to use.
Thanks Again
swift
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Have you conquered the indoctrination?
by Frog insomething i?ve wanted to ask you all for a while.
had you 100% denounced jw doctrine to yourself at the time of your leaving the org?
i know many have said that specific issues prompted them to leave i.e., wt membership in the un, silent lambs/child molestation policy, malawi political party card issues, inconsistent changes in doctrine i.e., 1975/1914 generation not passing?new light begets old light begets new light etc.
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swiftbreeze
I left also to be with the person i loved. We have known each other since childhood. But i decided not to marry him but to marry a Jw because thats the way i was raised. I had always wondered what life would have been like if i would have just followed my heart. years later we met up and i just couldnt walk away again. I was happy with him, it felt right, I couldnt deny that. He also opened my eyes to alot of things.
When i started talking to him about the JW's hoping that he would accept it and maybe become one also. He started pointing out things to me. I was afraid of being disfellowshipped and concerned as to what the elders would do or say and he told me how crazy that was. I came to this board and well the rest is history....but i often find myself reverting back to my old way of thinking and believing and i have to remind myself about the things that i have learned.
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Anyone Experience Something Similar After Exiting
by love2Bworldly ini am starting to remember something weird when i left the jw's, but wonder if it's a physchological manifestation of the brainwashing & control they had over me and the guilt trip/fear of being 'bad'.
i remember when i used to look up toward the sky sometimes and pray a silent prayer to jehovah.
after i got disfellowshipped, i felt like when i looked up and thought about god that there was almost a physical ceiling on the other side of the blue sky that curtained me off from jehovah hearing my prayers.
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swiftbreeze
No man, no organization can come between you and your relationship with God. Jesus died for all of our sins he didnt say oh if your disc'd then there's nothing for you. In fact i feel when i pray now that God hears my prayers. When i was a JW i felt a void. No matter how hard i prayed i felt nothing. It's different now.
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The man who remembered everything
by cheeseman inif you have an interest in human memory you will find these pages an interesting read.
it's the story of solomon shereshevskii, a russian born in 1886, and his ability to remember things in frightening detail.. http://www.dreamhawk.com/memory.htm.
http://www.ecs.soton.ac.uk/~harnad/hypermail/thinking.psychologically96/0060.html.
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swiftbreeze
Mary:
The same here. I can remember so much about my childhood. I remember being in my crib crying and there was two people trying to console me but i wanted my mother, i had to be no more than 1 at the time. but like you said i can't remember yesterday but i can remember things that happened 30 years ago in great detail.
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Are You A Better Person Now That You're Out of the "Truth"?
by minimus indo you feel better?
act better?
think more positively?
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swiftbreeze
I've been going through alot of different emotions but i do believe i'm better. This time last year i was a complete wreck, i hate to admit it but i often times i just wanted to go jump off a bridge...but things got better, although at the time i couldnt see no way out, i just had to stop trying to control everything and have an answer for everything, i learned to listen to the voice within. I was so nervous as a JW. sometimes i feel lazy, because i'm no longer towing the line, i get the feeling like i should be doing something. That "never enough" feeling creeps in. This board has been so helpful to me. I can actually open my mind now and live sometimes thats hard for me to accept...enjoying the moment...but i'm getting there
I am happier alot happier. Because I'm me...the real me, not some made up person that i'm told i should be.
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Bullies
by Nancy Drake inhi ya'll.. i'm looking for advice on how to handle a neighborhood child that is bullying my son and other children in my apartment complex.
he is very mean, takes my son's stuff, tries to trip him on his bike by putting a stick into his spokes, pulling his underwear up, cussing at him.
at first i tried to talk to him nicely, asked him to please not do mean things to other children.
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swiftbreeze
tell him to put a watchtower in his back pocket. Thats what the elders used to tell the boys in my cong. they said that the gangs would leave them alone if they did this. ( we were all like...yeeaah right)
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Do You REALLY Know People?
by minimus inare you a good judge of character?
do you really know a "friend" or "loved one" like you thought?
have you ever been disappointed as to how "off" you were?
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swiftbreeze
oopsy! i wasnt finished...
no we really don't know people. i barely know myself. went i stopped going to the KH.... i shocked myself... i would have never thought in a million years that i would be where i am today.
some people will never show their inner chamber.