I'm doing well academically, connecting with my professors and such. Right now I'm not too motivated to do anything. The only motivation I have is graduating and going to another school to further my profession. I feel like that alone isn't enough to hold my chin up everyday. I'm sick of the people at this school, and I don't like this city. Its so boring. I don't have a group of friends. I'm a junior. There are few at work I've partied with. I feel so alone. Sometimes I don't even know what I want or who I am. Its a horrible mind game. Its bad enough when my good friend calls me up and tells me that it seems I would be happier in Austin. Shes cool and she lives an hour away back home. I haven't been home in months. I wanted to go to school in Austin, and I've told my parents that. They will let me transfer now, but I'm already into my junior year. I have good recommendations lined up from a few of my professors. It sucks my parents wouldn't let me go to UT when I was starting college. I should appreciate I'm getting a good education, but this is just making me sad. I can't make paragraphs on this forum anymore.
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I'm feeling major depression
by tsunami_rid3r ini'm doing well academically, connecting with my professors and such.
right now i'm not too motivated to do anything.
the only motivation i have is graduating and going to another school to further my profession.
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When you're trying to hide from people...
by tsunami_rid3r insuch as you're really good friends.
i had this really tight group at the beginning of my freshman year of college, and something happened the 2nd year, where i was ostracized, and wasn't spoken to because i foolishly yelled at one of the girls.
i was alone then, until i found another group of friends, and i have now just left them for reasons i feel justified for.
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Such as you're really good friends. I had this really tight group at the beginning of my freshman year of college, and something happened the 2nd year, where I was ostracized, and wasn't spoken to because I foolishly yelled at one of the girls. I was alone then, until I found another group of friends, and I have now just left them for reasons I feel justified for. Its been a year now, and one of my friends from a bit ago, texts up wanting to go to a party today. I'm glad to hear from him. As I go around town today, I was thinking about my friend I yelled at, and I still feel bad about that. At the bookstore I thought I saw her, and I didn't want to talk to her really because of my shame. It wasn't her. As I walked out of my apartments office not too long ago getting my gate remote, she saw me. She saw me through my undercover get up of a black hoodie and sun glasses. Right then I recognized her, and went up to her and we hugged each other. We had small talk, and made our ways to our apartments. I mentioned our mutual friend to her, that we should all hang out tonight. She was alright with that if she could get away from her mom who is in town. I am not sure if she is afraid of me or even uncomfortable with me, and I am not sure if I should feel safe with her knowing that I live in the same plex as her. My mistakes make me feel like a horrible person.
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How do I flirt, not acting desperate at the same?
by tsunami_rid3r infirst i'll blame the fact that growing up as a witness, it was hard flirting with girls.
most of my younger days were spent at congregation gatherings, and it was hard trying to go up and talk to the girls.
both parents had to know about it, and it was quite a serious issue.
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Alright back to this issue again. At work, I open the store with this girl. She is really easy to talk to and not to mention easy on the eyes. I think she likes opening with me because the boss has told me that this girl feels comfortable with me. I have no problem smiling at her and making eye contact with her, and we have fun at work. I have found myself to be completely honest with her and open on issues as far as relationships and family. She seems honest and open towards me also, except she has only lied to me once, which she did call herself out on it, and this was on drug use. Now recently she has broken up with her boyfriend twice, 1st temporarily and the 2nd being permanent. He still comes by the store, trying to work things out, but she told me she doesn't want to and is now looking for someone new. I'm trying to think of how I can go about this. She knows I was in a relationship a month and a half ago. I know she is taking a class of my major this semester, which I have already taken. I am also taking another class this semester of which we share the same professor, just in different classes. We do work together for 7 hours, and I'm not sure if we should see each other more. I know I am attracted to her sexually, but I'm not sure if she is attracted to me sexually. Occasionally I will get subtle touches from her, but not often. I can't get her out of my mind. I need to do something.
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Who else has enemies?
by tsunami_rid3r intoday, i found out that my ex-roommate will be evicted from his place.
his mom came up to my dad's work and tried to make it sound like we're in for hell, but when in reality, my former apartment can't do anything to me.
my ex-roommate has had 2 months to find someone.
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I forgot to mention that I'm a little worried and scared.... Should I be?
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RichieRich
by babygirl75 inhas anyone heard from him?
hope he is doing okay and will post again soon...
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Hah we are facebook friends. Yeah, he's coming along just fine. You should see him, he is covered in all these bad ass tattoos and piercings.
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Who else has enemies?
by tsunami_rid3r intoday, i found out that my ex-roommate will be evicted from his place.
his mom came up to my dad's work and tried to make it sound like we're in for hell, but when in reality, my former apartment can't do anything to me.
my ex-roommate has had 2 months to find someone.
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Today, I found out that my ex-roommate will be evicted from his place. His mom came up to my dad's work and tried to make it sound like we're in for hell, but when in reality, my former apartment can't do anything to me. My ex-roommate has had 2 months to find someone. 2 months ago, there was someone taking my place, but he backed out because his parents didn't like the conditions. I don't understand why his parent's won't just pay the other part of the rent that they want me to pay if they want to keep their son in a place. Even though I am legally and financially safe, I have been cautioned by my dad to be aware of my surroundings and just to stay low. This sucks living like this. So anyone else have enemies? Care to share?
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Who else has zero friends?
by tsunami_rid3r ini am now a junior in college, and i have my own place.
i don't really like having roommates at all.
i just left in the middle of a lease because my ex-roommate was being a pain in the ass.
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Meeting x-dubs. That sounds awkward. I have long put aside that, and my parents don't even attend the meetings much since my dad's disfellowship.
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Who else has zero friends?
by tsunami_rid3r ini am now a junior in college, and i have my own place.
i don't really like having roommates at all.
i just left in the middle of a lease because my ex-roommate was being a pain in the ass.
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I am now a junior in college, and I have my own place. I don't really like having roommates at all. I just left in the middle of a lease because my ex-roommate was being a pain in the ass. Its been a month since I haven't lived with him and me living on my own, and he just now sends me a text asking for rent. I did have many friends at the start of college, but I made a few mistakes and burnt some bridges. I knew many girls, and I liked that. I am now alone, and sometimes I miss those good times. I have grown to become a private person, and I guess its just who I am. I have a steady job, and I have hung out with a few of the co-workers there, smoked and went to the gym with them. I don't consider these friends but acquaintances. I am not part of their little groups or anyones. I hate drama, but sometimes when I look at the facebook of my past friends, I am jealous of their social life.
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Should I pay up?
by tsunami_rid3r into begin with, i'm moving out of my apartment because my roommate is messy and irresponsible.
2 months ago, i asked him if he was able to find another roommate, and we were able to get to one shortly.
like i told him he has been living here basically half the month to see his girlfriend.
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Its $130 that he is asking. I can pay that but I'd rather not because I believe its not right.
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Should I pay up?
by tsunami_rid3r into begin with, i'm moving out of my apartment because my roommate is messy and irresponsible.
2 months ago, i asked him if he was able to find another roommate, and we were able to get to one shortly.
like i told him he has been living here basically half the month to see his girlfriend.
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I explained to him today what those fees cover, and he agreed to pay the application fee. He still wants me to pay the administrative fee, his reasoning is because I'm moving out, and he wants me to pay the 5 days which I probably will. I agree with the 5 day rent but also think its unfair because he practically lives here every Friday through Sunday. He also told me that my roommate and him will sue me if I don't pay that. Now when he said, then and there I didn't really feel like paying for anything. I want to move out as soon as possible. I'm scared that they might do something. I will still stay cool and relaxed with a smile. I might just tell them I'm a little aggravated that would do something like that and upset that our friendship has spiraled down to this. That would be all I have to say.