Posts by Cordelia

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586 607 Jerusalem destroyed.

by PoppyR in

hi guys, new!

and i'm sure this has been covered, but i find the site has no search for me to look, so sorry if you've discussed it to death.

for the first time last night i came across information about 586 being the actual year jerusalem was destroyed.

Cordelia

If you look in any encloypidia (cant spell) it will give you the true date,

when i first got on this site i posted two threads about it and someone gave me the line of the kings where you can check from the bible how long each one ruled for and get to the date that way too, (i wanted proof from the bible it wasn't true!) (it's on my topic history if you click on my name)

ps. i've just read your profile and i would definately advise fading rather than being dfed just from my own experience it causes too much heartache if youre family are dubs!

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anyone ever wonder whether IT could be the TRUTH?

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

i cant believe im posting this either!.

but ive got a huge decision to make wont go thru it all again its on my last thread, and i have decided that i am stopping going to the meetings completly (ive been dfed 7 months and because i didnt want to hurt my family even more i continued going to all the meetings and hid my boyfriend, wno was wonderful about it, put a letter of reinstatement in which they refused but relised by the way i paniked when i thought they might reinstate me that it is not what i want!).

i love my bf and want to be with him without any secrecy but i also want my family to accept him and still speak to me but i know that will not happen, so i have two choices either get reinstated and then leave (and risk losing mybf) or tell them now i dont want it and stop the meetings altogether before i go insane.. thing is to be free of the meetings and be with my bf, i will lose my family they are all so strong in the 'truth' they will not have any contact with me and my husband is divorcing me so ill lose finacially and my house and have to share time with my daughter, not to mention all my old friends who are wanting me back, and if i stop now all those months of trying to be reinstated will be wasted id be set right back,.

Cordelia

good piont famous!

sass, i was married for 9 years to a witness awho treated me bad, when i left (and thought i'd marry my bf) he just didnt divorce me (we have a 3 year old girl and he wanted us to be together again for her) but we dont love each other, it's sad but i know what proper love is now i have met my bf,

the reason why i get him to hid from him is because the origanal plan was for me to get reinstated and if my ex knew about him it would get to the elders and they'd be no chance of reinstatement. plus it would really hurt my dad as he'd know i've been lying to him!

Now my ex says he knows i am seeing the bf but coz i he has no proof i still don't want him to see my bf at my house (when he brings my baby home) reason is because when i told my dad about him he just said 'don't tell me, don't tell me' (and i felt bad coz he obviously wants to not know properly so maybe he can still have me a little bit!)

but my bf feels thats not good enough and we should be open now, but because we have been fighting so much and i've felt like he doesn't care, i am scared to do it and completly ruin my chance of reinstatement and hurt my dad if we are gonna keep fighting!

but hearing your story has made me see i should put him first but i want support off him too,

what a horriable organization when you can't be happy without it hurting everyone you love and losing everything, i'm beginning to hate it!

10

Update on me

by fullofdoubtnow in

jw
friends

hi, i am with my friend dedpoet again, we've been out for an hour or so, and he has kindly allowed me to post again from his pc as i have no internet access at home.. i have been reading all your kind replies to my posts of a few days ago, thank you all so much.

afew things have happened to me in the last few days which i would like to share with you all.

i missed tuesday nights meeting, as i have been doing for all the meetings for the last few weeks, and at around 930 had a visit from the po and another elder.

Cordelia

A friend of mine who has secretly stayed in contact with me but has recently started to ask about the un etc and the elders know she is seeing me (sometimes) but she has been told she will get dfed if she sees me again (but only one elder told her) so i wondered can they actually do that?

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anyone ever wonder whether IT could be the TRUTH?

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

i cant believe im posting this either!.

but ive got a huge decision to make wont go thru it all again its on my last thread, and i have decided that i am stopping going to the meetings completly (ive been dfed 7 months and because i didnt want to hurt my family even more i continued going to all the meetings and hid my boyfriend, wno was wonderful about it, put a letter of reinstatement in which they refused but relised by the way i paniked when i thought they might reinstate me that it is not what i want!).

i love my bf and want to be with him without any secrecy but i also want my family to accept him and still speak to me but i know that will not happen, so i have two choices either get reinstated and then leave (and risk losing mybf) or tell them now i dont want it and stop the meetings altogether before i go insane.. thing is to be free of the meetings and be with my bf, i will lose my family they are all so strong in the 'truth' they will not have any contact with me and my husband is divorcing me so ill lose finacially and my house and have to share time with my daughter, not to mention all my old friends who are wanting me back, and if i stop now all those months of trying to be reinstated will be wasted id be set right back,.

Cordelia

you are all so wise!! and keep hitting the nail on the head and helped me so much thank you all,

derek my dad said that i could do what i wanted after i was reinstated coz he's hoping i'll have changed my mind by then, he wouldn't stand for anything even tho he say's he might! (so really things would be just as hard then!)

little toe i started doing the list but never finished it but i will get on to it again as i think that would help.

sass you have made loads of sense you seem to know exactly how i've been feeling,

Tez that is a lovely idea i think i will do things like that and even tho i may be 'living in sin' and hurting them at least they will know my feelings for them will never change hope things get better with your son.

I've had a bit of a funny day my dad kept ringing to check where i was but even he said he cant do it anymore and suggested if i really am hating the meetings so much he would not contact me (so he didnt know about the bf) maybe for a month (coz he said it's killing him too worring about me) and he said that then it would be my decision if i went to the meetings or not as he wouldn't know about it,

I told my bf and he said he was annoyed coz he thought i was telling them totally about him and that he wants to move in etc (he's mostly bothered about my ex knowing about him!) and we had a horriable row as i think i have done a massive thing by standing up to my dad but he just seems to want more and more he really hates hiding from my ex, i have prob been unfair but i feel like i have done such a big thing just telling my dad he is on the scene and as we have been falling out so much i was scared of losing everything and then it not working out, should he understand that??

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anyone ever wonder whether IT could be the TRUTH?

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

i cant believe im posting this either!.

but ive got a huge decision to make wont go thru it all again its on my last thread, and i have decided that i am stopping going to the meetings completly (ive been dfed 7 months and because i didnt want to hurt my family even more i continued going to all the meetings and hid my boyfriend, wno was wonderful about it, put a letter of reinstatement in which they refused but relised by the way i paniked when i thought they might reinstate me that it is not what i want!).

i love my bf and want to be with him without any secrecy but i also want my family to accept him and still speak to me but i know that will not happen, so i have two choices either get reinstated and then leave (and risk losing mybf) or tell them now i dont want it and stop the meetings altogether before i go insane.. thing is to be free of the meetings and be with my bf, i will lose my family they are all so strong in the 'truth' they will not have any contact with me and my husband is divorcing me so ill lose finacially and my house and have to share time with my daughter, not to mention all my old friends who are wanting me back, and if i stop now all those months of trying to be reinstated will be wasted id be set right back,.

Cordelia

Thanks sass, you have really helped me i have decided what to do i am gonna try and give my bf a proper go but what my dads prob is is that im stopping going so i am wasting the 8 months i have tryed to get reinstated and puutting myself back even further he has said i could decide to leave the truth when i am reinstated guess he just wants to be able to talk to me without the dfing hanging over us. and thats where sometimes i take it out on my bf coz i think 'why dont i do that just get reinstated and then leave' but its coz of my bf im not doing that.

altho like seattle said i should seperate the issues he is so right i dont think i think its true so i would be happy just stopping going, its just i wish i had just left not been dfed as i could talk to people then altho maybe even that would be worse coz then i'd have constant pressure from them all!

point is: i am just gonna stop going but a part of me worries that i am wasting the last 8 months and if ever i wanted to get reinstated for my family it would take me so much longer than it would of done now!

but i am doing the right thing are'nt i??

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Warning: Dirty joke

by MsMcDucket in

have you ever had a pussy wrapped around your neck?.

answer:.

yes, when you were born!

Cordelia

two irishmen in bed one turned to the other and said:

'i dont think much of this wife swopping lark do you?'

54

The end is nigh

by IP_SEC in

do you guys think we are sufficiantly along in the month of october to be able to say that the end isnt coming in the fall of '05?.

when i was a dub i really thought the end was coming this month.. 1975+30= 2005. if adam was 30 when eve was created this would be the end of the 5000 years of since jahs last rest.. eve created, jah rest for 1000 years (1k years is as one day to jovah) he picks up work again 1000 years after eve is created.

now in 2005 that means he has just 1 more "day" until the next great 1k years sabbath.

Cordelia

IP sec i cant believe you are jumping ahead like this!!

theres still 5 days to go, i am convinced the end will come then, after all they have never been wrong before!

or have they??

47

Im new

by g_cuddles in

jw
friends

.

is there anyone here who actually support jws or is everyone disassociated?.

Cordelia

welcome...

i hope your family are ok what is making your sister disassociate herself? i got dfed in march and have brought loads of heartache to my family, i was very strong in the 'truth' till then but now i have experienced the cruel coldness of being shunned even if it is the 'truth' i dont want it!

can your sister not just fade and save you all that pain?

x

67

anyone ever wonder whether IT could be the TRUTH?

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

i cant believe im posting this either!.

but ive got a huge decision to make wont go thru it all again its on my last thread, and i have decided that i am stopping going to the meetings completly (ive been dfed 7 months and because i didnt want to hurt my family even more i continued going to all the meetings and hid my boyfriend, wno was wonderful about it, put a letter of reinstatement in which they refused but relised by the way i paniked when i thought they might reinstate me that it is not what i want!).

i love my bf and want to be with him without any secrecy but i also want my family to accept him and still speak to me but i know that will not happen, so i have two choices either get reinstated and then leave (and risk losing mybf) or tell them now i dont want it and stop the meetings altogether before i go insane.. thing is to be free of the meetings and be with my bf, i will lose my family they are all so strong in the 'truth' they will not have any contact with me and my husband is divorcing me so ill lose finacially and my house and have to share time with my daughter, not to mention all my old friends who are wanting me back, and if i stop now all those months of trying to be reinstated will be wasted id be set right back,.

Cordelia

thanks i know you are all right its just a shock isnt it to think its not the 'truth' and even more annoying that your loved ones cant see it, do you all think i would be happier not going to any meetings? even tho thats taking my familys hope away

sassmyfrass its great to hear from you, my pming has not been working and i often wondered how you were getting on, are u still trying to get reinstated how is the marraige doing do you feel like you did the right thing? (sorry to be nosy but i always wondered if u was ok you kind of did the thing i should of done and was open and honest about your bf in the first place, i thought i was helping my family by giving them hope i was getting reinstated but now i realise i have probably been crueler this way! and i have had months of acting like a phsyco to my bf and worn down some of the love he had for me)

acrugirl i hope you are ok i read your other thread that was suggested and really feel for you,

littletoe i know what you are saying my parents prob will die soon but instead of that making me think i should please myself it makes me feel really sad that i should be doing all i can to make their lives happy not sad before they die, imagine if im off with my bf being happy and they are heartbroke and then die. that is something i actually worry about and almost made me think i should get reinstated and then leave after they die! (i know that sounds stupid tho!!)

67

anyone ever wonder whether IT could be the TRUTH?

by Cordelia in

jw
friends

i cant believe im posting this either!.

but ive got a huge decision to make wont go thru it all again its on my last thread, and i have decided that i am stopping going to the meetings completly (ive been dfed 7 months and because i didnt want to hurt my family even more i continued going to all the meetings and hid my boyfriend, wno was wonderful about it, put a letter of reinstatement in which they refused but relised by the way i paniked when i thought they might reinstate me that it is not what i want!).

i love my bf and want to be with him without any secrecy but i also want my family to accept him and still speak to me but i know that will not happen, so i have two choices either get reinstated and then leave (and risk losing mybf) or tell them now i dont want it and stop the meetings altogether before i go insane.. thing is to be free of the meetings and be with my bf, i will lose my family they are all so strong in the 'truth' they will not have any contact with me and my husband is divorcing me so ill lose finacially and my house and have to share time with my daughter, not to mention all my old friends who are wanting me back, and if i stop now all those months of trying to be reinstated will be wasted id be set right back,.

Cordelia

Thanks everyone, i guess i just wondered coz its so hard seeing my dad so torn apart he came round today and had written out 3 options i have and i have to tell him by friday, if i say i am seeing this boy and stopping meetings he will have nothing to do with me! basically the only option he thinks i have is to focus on getting reinstated and then he said i can choose to date the boy or stop the meetings! (he just wants me back so bad!)

the thing is i stuck by wanting the boy but then i spent the afternoon with him and everything he did was wrong, he kept joking to cheer me up so i told him he was insensitive i thought of a thing he loves doing, football and said he had to give it up as i am giving up my family he said he would but later said he wouldnt coz theres no reason he has to and i just went crazy i have treated him so bad and got so upset and wondered why i am giving up my life to be with him! and i dont want to feel this way i know i am in the wrong but im scared now of losing everything and really hurting my family and then resenting him and expecting too much from him!

as for whether its the truth or not, what scares me there is how much my family are sticking to it even tho it is coming between us so much, they really believe it and say it may have been wrong sometimes but even the apostles got things mixed up, no other religon is giving out Gods name and preaching etc

i just need all youre help as i do actually have to make the decision now, and tikjmo once told me that theres nothing worse than living two ways and so maybe i will be happier if i make and stick to a decision even if it is the wrong one!