I am a totally different person, possibly unrecognisable from 10m yrs ago.
I was grinding away at a mortgage. Unhappy marrige and unhappy kids, as they were having doubts but I was too busy trying to keep it all together to see it. I was "old" and boring and bored and tired out at 43.
I now live in a commune, have restrendthened my relationship with my kids and their partners (and grand kids now)and my ex. I travel overseas every 6 months, dance like no one's watching and have a happy and vibrant life.
Now I am a truly spiritual person, not a wannabe putting on a uniform 3 times a week, trying to worship a truly invisible god.