when i was about 16 i had a terrible crush on an older lady (she might have been 30) who was the lovliest person ever.
she had poise, confidence, intelligence, wit, appreciation and culture.
i was just a skinny, shy, geeky kid that she took under her wing.
A girl I worked with once told me I couldn't look trashy if I tried upon questioning the business appropriateness of my outfit. It was strange, but i accepted it.
I like those compliments that accidentally get back to you through a third party best. As in, "so and so said this about you."
My worst compliment came from the witnoid boy of my sixteen year old dreams saying,"you wouldn't look right with big breasts." not what a girl wants to hear, dork.
i no longer have a home phone.
i just use use my cell (verizon lg) flip.
i'm thinking of replacing my phone and possibly getting other "toys" like picture taking and so forth...any recommendations?
it has no camera which is fine by me, but yesterday I saw a woman on the shoulder of the highway snapping a photo of her fender bender w. her camera phone. I can see how they would come in handy.
my plan is with cingular. verizon could not keep up with my relocating and still calls me once in awhile clueless about my prior contract with them and how yes it is expired and no i did not break the contract early. it was a mess and i have concluded that they do not have a proper inner-communications systems in place.
i have not had a land line since 2001 and i'm not sure why anyone still does. its sooo 20th century. hehe.
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http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/a30439-2004dec27.html.
I dunno...its kinda cute and they are marketing it to be like, the anti-hummer. gotta love that.
after almost a year of living abroad, away from my parents and away from anything even remotely watchtower related, having allowed myself to not worry about these silly little things (yet convincing my parents that i was still going); now that i've been back for about 6 weeks, i feel that i have to put on a double effort to cover over things that i've said or done, and avoid using "suspect" words or phrases like "cheers" or "good luck".
its driving me crazy at the moment, and 10 times more than it was doing before i moved out.
today, i had a mini panic attack at having told a "worldly" friend of mine "good luck".
so maybe its time for me to just pack up and go...
I think you have the solutions to your problems in this. I cannot imagine going off to live abroad for an entire year, leaving the wt behind and loving life's freedom, only to return to the same ol-same ol monotonous mind control junk. Don't hang around there. Fading will not be easy with your dad's position and the congregational duties he holds...ever. The only thing worse than the initial guilt you may face from fading within close range is the guilt that will follow from your dad being forced to step down and your entire family and cong. looking at you like its all your fault and, "thanks you pathetic evil-doing piece of shit, how do you think this makes your father look?" No you do not need that burden.
Under normal circumstances I am not one to encourage running away from life's problems. But these are not normal circumstances and henceforth I say do run and do it as quickly as you can. You saw how easy it was to live abroad and seems you enjoyed it immensely. Similarly, I packed up and took off when I was slightly younger than you and I have not looked back once. I honestly feel, from experience, that when you are born into this religious infrastructure, and all of your friends and family are witnesses, the only way you can free yourself psychologically is to isolate yourself from the rest of the group. It is bound to suck for awhile with loneliness and whatnot, but no one ever said the road to freedom or the life of an xjw was an easy one.
Even after some time has passed you are likely to revert back to the old jw ways of thinking but hopefully by that time you will no longer be a prisoner to it. Like a few weeks ago as I was talking on the phone w. a witness gal I grew up with, something she said caused me to scream out, "christ no!" Immediately after there was a moment of dead silence as I thought uht-oh, now look what I've done. But I ended up laughing it off and thinking christ, what do I care?...she called me and I dare her to say something.
Whatever your next move may be... do not succumb to the pressures of accepting a ministerial servant position. And when they ask you again just say heelll-no. Even if only in your head. I am really rooting for you here.
good luck guy,
Chrissy
first, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they carried us.
they took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes.. .
then after that trauma, our baby cribs were covered with bright colored lead-based paints.. .
lol. yes brenda, I love it. oh the memories...wonderbread, tang, slip n' slide, pink floyd playing in another room...
I may have been born in the late 70's, but I paid close attention.
...instead of running around the house singing cutesy spongebob squarepants songs, or sesame street rhymes, I ran around singing..."we don't need no ed-u-cation."
tell me what you think is cool, and things you think are uncool..... cool.
rock music .
trainers .
ou, ou... the airstream. yes, very cool!
well guys, school starts back tomorrow, so you won't have to tolerate as much of me for a while.
i'm going to be quite busy: .
advanced calculus .
Holy smokes John,
Any three of those would be a full load in itself...but wow, yes, with all of that you will be one busy boy, no doubt.
i think the hardest thing i ever went through was my divorce.
it was something i knew i needed to go through, and get over, but it was the hardest thing of my life.
i wanted the divorce, but it was so very painful.... what's the hardest thing you've ever gone through?
Deliver my baby daughter. Still gives me chills!
lol. With all due respect, are you sure you want to take credit for that, roy?
gee, after reading through everyone else's toughest obstacles the thing I was going to mention starting sounding like kiddy stuff somewhere in between colon cancer, prison, and bottles of brandy.
if you could choose, which person in history would you like to be?.
(okay, i allow bible characters.
danny.
john muir
good choice!
you mean none of you men would like to have been Gloria Steinem? just think, you could have been a real moving force as an advocate in the women's liberation movement.
Rachel Carson also, was a pretty amazing woman. **or Marie Curie... so passionate for her cause, it consumed her**
check out this website:.
http://www.tumbleweedhouses.com/.
i want one of these houses!
aw..those are adorable!
i want to throw out all of my stuff and move into front gable at once.
