Posts by Layla33

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Narcissistic Personality?

by Sparkplug in

ok, don't laugh, i cut this from wikipedia, but this is a subject that i have been studying lately.

i found it very interesting.

and very disturbing...see yellow highlight.

Layla33

I definitely believe this type of behavior is breeded in the JW organization. "The annointed" come to mind.

I remember going through my "questions" to be baptized and being interviewed by someone of the annointed. This man literally acted like he was going to fly away. At one point in the process, he literally stood up, waved his arms around feeling the air and basking in the glow of his blessings. When this man talked, people literally bow - I have seen it, it was unbelievable.

I could go on, but yes, for so many reasons, I definitely think it is bred in this organization.

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Were YOU Personally Disappointed That The End Didn't Come Yet?

by minimus in

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Layla33

No, because honestly the whole thing didn't make sense to me. I would ask questions like, say there is a ball of lightening that hits a building and there are JWs in there and non-JWs, you are telling me, somehow some will die and some won't?

And then I couldn't understand a God of Love causing so much suffering and destruction to the world and why he allowed it to get that way in the first place. And then I didn't understand the whole living for 1,000 years cleaning up the place and then going through some more tests, and then what was the tests and would JWs being sitting there giving them out? And if so, what about all those JWs that I knew were not good people, that were simply living under a title and still as corrupt as ever.

That's kind of when I realized it was all a big lie, and I haven't thought in those context again.

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I don't like using Jehovahs' name anymore

by LouBelle in

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i must say the more and more i learn and find my way around my spirituallity the less i use the name jehovah.

it just reminds me of everything i went through, reminds me of the ""bad"" and not the good of god.

it reminds me of hypocracy and mind control.

Layla33

I totally understand, as it is something not verified conclusively.

I refer to our creator as the "higher spirit" or as simply as "our creator" and leave it at that.

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Reinstated 5 yrs ago

by Treebe in

i am just trying to understand what my choices are.

i have been reinstated for just over 5 yrs and still have not had my privileges back.

i am a single mom and have been to all the meeting that we can, doing our best outside of kids colds and flu's, not to mention car trouble, but i have always turned in my time each month and study reports, but still i can not answer.

Layla33

We are apostates hun, but anyhow, I have an analogy I like to use, it goes like this: I wouldn't want to be a member of a club that doesn't want me to join.

I do not understand why adults play this game of acceptance and rejection over and over again. This is not spirituality, has nothing to do with God, it's all about imperfect people deciding in their imperfect state who they think is acceptable or not. Think outside the box. They play their favorites and their games just like any other religious organization out there.

And feel free to discredit this completely, but I once walked in darkness until I could see, so my heart goes out to you.

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Can I please be the first to say...

by sweetface2233 in

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happy birthday tj - iamcleared2land.

here is a link to his story, http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/150796/1.ashx one of the most heart wrenching i have heard in my entire life.. jwd has his birthday showing as today, january 20th, however it is really tuesday, january 22nd.

also, for those who have read his thread (and if you havent, i highly encourage that you do) his sister's birthday is monday, january 21st...tomorrow!

Layla33

Have a wonderful birthday.

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What type of person are you attracted to now?

by Layla33 in

i was just thinking about this the other day, about how my ideas of a romantic partner have changed since being a jw.. growing up, i thought i would marry a very upstanding jw, we would pioneer together, do missionary work, have children, see the world.

(never had any thoughts about bethel, though.

) so what it boiled down to was a stepford husband, up tight, not the least bit sexual, closed minded bore.. so now that i have grown up, seen the world, been married (and actually picked a good man the first time, although it didn't work out), i just contrast that with what i am attracted to now.. i like them open minded, earthy, i love artistic types because i am a published writer, hair doesn't matter to me (long/short, bald, etc), challenges convention, very sexual, still like a traveling man.. i am just curious if you anyone else can compare and contrast how their ideas have changed since breaking out the group-think of the jw organization..

Layla33

I love reading these comments.

The "monkey sex" comments are a crack up.

I actually have been much more open sense getting divorced. I date all backgrounds, ethnicities, nice, eccentric, sarcastic (within reason), very skinny, muscular, average, it doesn't matter. My ex husband was European and a mixture of two different ethnicities, so now it doesn't matter to me at all. I think it is the man that makes the man, if that makes any sense.

One thing about pretty boys, there was this one man I noticed right after my separation was official that I would see at work. He was gorgeous, absolutely the best looking man I have ever seen and I just ran from him. He would come to my office and chat friendly, and I could see he wanted to take it to the next level and I literally pushed away. And finally we went out for drinks after work and we talked and I was pleasantly surprised. He was nice, friendly, had a great sense of wit (I LOVE WIT in a man) and honestly he was one of the earthiest people I had talked to in a while. We dated for a good year or so. I realized that I didn't want to talk to him initally because he was just too good looking which was silly on my part.

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My story: "Pop!" goes the Little Circuit Breaker

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

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i guess it's about time i write my story.

i've put this off for a long time... primarily becuase, while i thought my story was bad, i've read so many worse and heart-rending stories here.

i think, though, there is some therapeutic value in 'letting it all out' with others who know what 'it' was like.

Layla33

I started reading this and was completely memorized with the story.

I can totally understand the disfellowshipping of the family and I experienced this as well. I hadn't thought about that in a very long time.

I wonder how many JW children/teenager dealt with this? I consider it a form of child abuse actually, it took years to undo that horror and pain.

My heart goes out to you, really.

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Singledom - the peaks and troughs?

by Crumpet in

i have almost completed the first year of my adult life (since 18) as a bachelorette and was wondering what others' experience of singledom is?

what would you say are the advantages to being single (other than being able to pioneer .

what are the things you miss the most about a relationship?.

Layla33

Since being divorced, I see the good and the bad.

Good - I get the entire bed to myself. I can do what I want, don't have to involve anyone else in my decisions. Cooking for one is easier than for two. I made different meals just about every day, now I can make chicken everyday or fish everyday and I am happy. No one to bring you down because they are feeling down. No fighting for the remote.

Bad - miss the friendship and companionship. No one to laugh at my jokes - yes, I think I have a good sense of humor. Someone to share your experiences with and recall them in happiness. Someone to try out my new dishes. Travel partner. Ah yes, and the sex.

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