Your post took me back to my first meetings missed, and field service missed. Wow, those days were thrilling and scary at the same time.
I knew I was being true to myself yet at the same time I knew I would face dire consequences.
I faced the consequences of my behavior and survived. That was all six years ago now.
I am still alive, have a new husband, new set of friends, new home, new life.
Anewme
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7My husband left for the convention this morning, felt strange as I slept in
by AWAKE&WATCHING inas i drove off to work i thought "well this is it, it's official now.
" i never thought back in may that i would not go to the convention.
but what would be the point, i haven't been to one meeting since i found out about the un.. i was so excited when i found out that my former congregation was assigned to the same convention as the congregation i have been in for the last 4 1/2 years.
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Do you know how strong you all are?
by jgnat ini'm thinking this morning at the enormous effort required to leave the witnesses.
that you all found your way here is amazing.
you are a select group of strong people, who will not allow life or any organization to knock you down.
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YES, LETS THANK SIMON!!!!!!!
THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOU SIR FOR THIS WEBSITE AND ALL YOU DO TO KEEP IT GOING!
IT HAS SAVED MY LIFE!!!!
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Syvia Browne The Psychic.......
by anewme inhow do you feel about her?
have you ever attended one of her events?
do you know she started a church novus spiritus?
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Thankyou everyone for taking time to reply to my inquiry.
Sylvia Browne's performance on Montel Williams is certainly good.
She is very good at assuring people of the future. And on the show there is no way to know if her
predictions turn out true.
People desperately wish to know the future so there is a huge market out there for her services.
Her website sylvia.org informs that her prices are $750 for a psychic reading.
She is actually located near where I live. I never knew that.
One thing disturbs me greatly. In her church services on Sunday, three times the attendees are asked to recite an incantation or invocation in a strange language that refers to Sylvia (I presume) as goddess or queen of the heavens or somesuch. As a former JW this worshipful chanting turns me off very much.
However I do admit to being an easy target for a powerful woman guru.
In this life I will always crave a god or goddess guide I guess.
I must be careful.
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I can hardly contain myself! :-)
by R.F. insince my mental departure from the organization, i'm still trying to wrap my mind around the entire concept of freedom.
now that i don't have so many restraints as a result of being in the org, such as mental, and time restraints, i can't help but be happy!
there is so much that i want to accomplish in life now and i know that now it's possible.
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Hurray for you!!!!!
Yes, leave while you are still young!!!!!!
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Syvia Browne The Psychic.......
by anewme inhow do you feel about her?
have you ever attended one of her events?
do you know she started a church novus spiritus?
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How do you feel about her? Have you ever attended one of her events? Do you know she started a church Novus Spiritus? It is centered very close to my home.
Have you ever watched her perform on Montel Williams?
I just saw her for the first time today and she comes off as a very stable wise woman.
I remember the JWs cautioning me against her back in the 70s!
Just her name used to make me shudder.
Well now I am wondering what is up with her?
Do you believe in intuitives, people who are highly intuitive?
Do you believe in spirit guides?
Do you believe the dead are somehow interested in the living?
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I want to apologize to everyone, for everything.
by nvrgnbk ini'm sorry.. we've all been through alot.. .
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This afternoon I got the most kind and sensitive pm to cheer me from our very own NVRGNBK!
He is a very insightful heartfelt man!
Give him three cheers!!!
And tell him we love him!!!!
And beg him to stay!!!!!
WE LOVE YOU NATE! DONT GO AWAY!!!!!
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DISINHERITED-----TWICE!!!!
by anewme ini am feeling so low and beaten down today i can hardly talk or move.
my eyes are swollen from crying.
normally you save this kind of emotion for when someone has died.
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Thankyou everyone who so sensitively replied to my pain!
I always feel foolish after these outcries, but in truth you all always make me feel so much better!
Thankyou everyone who pmd me concerning this situation. And Mary thankyou! Yes, I called a trust lawyer today and am awaiting his call back.
There may be something I can do! Yes Paralipomenon, great ideas for investing!
So I am feeling better this afternoon after sharing my situation with you all. You are all correct! I should calm down, lie low, wait and be patient. I will talk with this lawyer and see what happens.
Thanks again,
You guys make me feel loved and appreciated!
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Depressed witness going door to door
by I quit! inthis morning i saw a witness mother and her son heading out into service.
from the area they were in i think they were going to be doing some street corner work.
i was stopped at a light when they walked in front of my car.
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DISINHERITED-----TWICE!!!!
by anewme ini am feeling so low and beaten down today i can hardly talk or move.
my eyes are swollen from crying.
normally you save this kind of emotion for when someone has died.
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I am feeling so low and beaten down today I can hardly talk or move. My eyes are swollen from crying.
Normally you save this kind of emotion for when someone has died. But embarrassingly my tears are over money.
When I was only 17 the witnesses got a hold of me and recruited me into their organization.
When my father found out he reacted like they told me he would. He violently opposed and threw me out into the dark night at 18 years old.
I spent the next 35 years cloistered inside the witness community.
When my father was dying he specifically mentioned in his will that he was very displeased with my being a witness and that if it was found I ever gave a dime to the Watchtower Society I would be completely disinherited.
So I never did donate again to the society for fear of losing money my brother gave me from my father's estate, the only money I ever had.
Even though I am no longer a JW now 6 years and have divorced from my JW family, she still feels anyone who is so foolish to join that stupid cult must not be responsible to manage a small fortune.
She is willing my inheritance into a trust and made my brother the managing trustee.
I will never be allowed to buy a home with it according to my brother. (this kills me because I have been talking with my brother over the course of a year about my desire to someday own my own home) When I need something I must ask my brother for it for the rest of my life. He was furious and at first did not want the position until he read the perks of the trustee position. Now he is interested in managing my trust. It will be lucrative for him to do so it seems.
and believing that stupid Russell and his cronies that they were chosen by God to be his modern day slave!
They played on my humble spirit and made me into their slave for 35 years. They encouraged me to turn my back and dissassociate from my fleshly relatives and ignore their birthdays and holidays and get togethers saying it pleased Jesus and Jehovah somehow. Now that I am free from that spiritual prison I am still punished by the world for being so stupid and gullible to join that awful anti-social religion in the first place. I have been out for 6 years and enjoyed renewed association with my fleshly relatives---I thought. But yesterday my own brother told me my aunt thinks I am an "idiot". When I called her to speak with her she hung up the phone on me! My 93year old aunt hung up on me while saying " Have a nice life"
It was devastating. She might as well have shot me with a rifle through the heart. The rejection was such a blow. I have only known rejection,loneliness and unhappiness all my life it feels.
From an alcoholic mother, from being a fat teen, from joining the JWs and from marrying a very selfish handicap JW man for 20 years. Actually, the last six years post df have been the most peaceful in my entire life.
The fleshly family is more or less gone as is my JW family. I now surround myself with people who care for me and love me and value me and wish the best for me.
I know I know what you are thinking......at least they left you something even if it is in a trust.
This is true and I am grateful. But I am also really depressed and trying to recover today from the assaults yesterday.
I now see that you should make your own money in this world and not rely on others to gift you your money and happiness. Make your own fortune and no one can take it away from you.
Go to college and get a career. Choose something and if it doesnt work out, try something else. But develop some skills and be productive in this world.
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Fight with ex-Wife
by thepackage ini just got off the phone with my ex-wife (we where talking about the kids) and out of the blue she starts tellnig me how much everybody at teh kh is supportive of her (she files for divorce after i decided not to go to meetnigs any more.
n i did not cheat on her).
any ways, she star5ts naming names of all the people that "love" her and how she is a better dub now than ever.
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DIVORCE is just the opposite of falling in love. That should tell you what you are in for.
It is BIG, UGLY, SMELLY AND SICKENING, THE WORST GUT WRENCHING AWFUL EXPERIENCE.
And it can ESCALATE LIKE A WILD FIRE AND TURN DEADLY REAL FAST!!
So, the best advice I can give is to stay calm, keep everything calm, work through your lawyers, and slip out of the marriage as quickly and peacefully as possible.