Posts by findingmyway

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What do you see when you look in the mirror?

by findingmyway in

jw
friends

when i look at myself in the mirror i see a different person than i saw a few years ago.

also, when i look at photos of myself from a few years back, i don't even know myself.

not that i look that much different physically -- it has something to do with the eyes.

findingmyway

Es,

I have a constant battle with depression as well. Now that I no longer have my family to lean on, I'm starting to rebuild a support system. But it's hard starting from scratch when you don't even have a foundation anymore. I try not to get too lost in myself because I have an 8 year old that I have to care for and I need to be well for him. The last thing I want is for him to look back on his childhood and remember me as a sad mother. So whenever I am having an episode, I save my tears for my pillow and reserve them for the darkness of my room. My boy really keeps me going.

How are you coping?

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What do you see when you look in the mirror?

by findingmyway in

jw
friends

when i look at myself in the mirror i see a different person than i saw a few years ago.

also, when i look at photos of myself from a few years back, i don't even know myself.

not that i look that much different physically -- it has something to do with the eyes.

findingmyway

men stare at themselves when they shave, women do so when they put on ; their makeup

Yes! That's exactly what I mean. Every now and then when you look you into the eyes and even deeper into the soul. Sometimes, it happens in a split second, and sometimes you actually SEE you...not your mole or your lashes or your lips, but YOU.

Maybe one day ill say "hi, how are you, Ive been meaning to tell you what a nice person you are and how much I like you"

This is definitely a conscious goal of mine, as well.

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which JEHOVAH'S WITNESS SCARE TACTICS kept you from leaving?

by Ms. Whip in

meeting jehovah's witnesses at your door was a fresh, new experience.

they were nice, friendly and smiled real big.

along with your bible study you received an instant life.

findingmyway

All those years of indoctrination about evil worldly people had my trust count at zero.

I have the same issues. I guess this is where it stems from. I can count on one hand how many friends I have. The good thing is that they are true blue, but I don't have many.

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which JEHOVAH'S WITNESS SCARE TACTICS kept you from leaving?

by Ms. Whip in

meeting jehovah's witnesses at your door was a fresh, new experience.

they were nice, friendly and smiled real big.

along with your bible study you received an instant life.

findingmyway

I was born into the cult so they threatened to take away my entire family and all of my friends... when I finally did leave they took them all away.

I wasn't born a JW, but my mom became acquainted with and got baptized into the organization when I was about 3 or 4, so I was raised a JW. I don't qualify my exit as "leaving" because it wasn't voluntary, so maybe that's the reason why my family still has hope for me. I don't attend any of the meetings, and if my 8 year old son does attend, it is with my family. Also, this isn't my first time being df'd. The first time, the shunning was more absolute. Now, although they don't go out of their way and we don't formally associate, my family still talks to me.

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which JEHOVAH'S WITNESS SCARE TACTICS kept you from leaving?

by Ms. Whip in

meeting jehovah's witnesses at your door was a fresh, new experience.

they were nice, friendly and smiled real big.

along with your bible study you received an instant life.

findingmyway

The thought of disappointing my parents and family was one grip the borg had on me. The thought of death at Armageddon was so frightening to me. When I finally realized that I would never measure up, I became more comfortable with idea of death...not that I want to die, but it's natural and if it's anything like I was told it is -- "the sprit goes out, he does back to the ground, and in that day his thoughts do perish" -- then death was nothing to fear. I don't fear going to sleep and if death is the same, then if I'm going to die, I may as well enjoy life.

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What do you see when you look in the mirror?

by findingmyway in

jw
friends

when i look at myself in the mirror i see a different person than i saw a few years ago.

also, when i look at photos of myself from a few years back, i don't even know myself.

not that i look that much different physically -- it has something to do with the eyes.

findingmyway

When I look at myself in the mirror I see a different person than I saw a few years ago. Also, when I look at photos of myself from a few years back, I don't even know myself. Not that I look that much different physically -- it has something to do with the eyes. I was very unhappy. When I look at recent photos of myself, my eyes are dancing and I am glowing.

Has anyone else experienced something similar?

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Anyone from the Washington, DC area

by findingmyway in

it would be nice to correspond with someone from my area.

findingmyway

I was raised as a JW...been df'd for the past 4 years and I was just surfing the net for info or JW web sites to find answers to my thousand and 1 questions. Now I have quite a few links saved in my "Searching" favorites folder. Glad I found this site (and the many others)! How about you? How did you stumble across this site?

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