Welcome In Between , Thank you for sharing your story, I can truely relate. My family and I are Faders, we go once in a while just to keep up appearances, since my Mom (regular pioneer) is still in, and other family members also. It was shocking at first to say the least, when I found out about all the lies and misinformation the Society throws at the members, I went through the feeling totally lost phase, like the rug was pulled from under me, to the incredible anger phase when you realize the harm they have caused to so many unsuspecting people, and how they have influenced so many decisions you've made in your life, to the just letting go phase when although you are still angry at them at times you see them as insignificant and unable to affect your life.
Now and for quite awhile I am in the enlightenment phase, and it's like waking up and seeing the Sun for the first time, when you are free to question and find answers and have achieved that inner peace and joy, that was so hard to find unless, so we were told by the society on numerous times, your were doing the JW shuffle-you know-5 meetings a week, 10 hours a month, studying for all meetings, and those that achieved these unrealistic goals would find that they had no peace and joy, but were exhausted and neglecting other important things. Today I see so many things differently, I believe in God the Creator, but I no longer choose to call him Jehovah (iv'e researched where that name came from), I don't believe in the bible as God's inerrant word (iv'e researched that also), I would say that I believe God's word to us is his creation around us, and our wonderful bodies. If we show Love to others and ourselves we don't need commandments telling us how to behave because our behaviour would be such that would no harm others or ourselves, that's what I strive for. Anyway, I've rambled long enough, Take care, and read, read, read as there is incredible information on this site, there are many wonderful minds that gather here, you will be empowered and enlightened.