hi jesika,,,,,,,thank you so much for the lovely thoughts.... i have a tendency to withdraw when i am not doing well....i am in therapy and slowly getting better...lots of pressure to get back into things on this end...i just feel worthless....jw scars you know...guilt that just doesn't end.....
i enjoy my time here on the "net".....that is my company...i live in a small town,,,small congregation you get the picture....no way out....you know the scene...no worldily friends,,,and i can't look at a witness,,,,
my personality is not mainstream...i say and do things different...i have a great tendency to come across really oddly...i say one thing,,,,and the way i say it or show it can be taken so different from what i meant....
i always feel bad when this happens,,,as it is hard to explain and undo what i have said...this has happened alot at work lately....i could never deal with it if i thought i hurt some one in chat..everyone here has gone through so much!!! i read the stories and just shudder at times...
so,,,because i am going through a "bad frame" right now,,,it is for myself that i have not been in chat lately...this will pass as i have had it before...too much spiritual pressure,,,then i can't deal with any thing else...everything seems like too much.
i know you all understand this.......ugg,,,of the wish i was stronger class