I'm sorry, Stuckinarut! The saddest part of being in the org is that ALL of the relationships are conditional.
It goes beyond that. When you are in the borg, your friends are automatically chosen for you. Sure, you may grow closer to some more than others, but your choices are limited to the people within those 4 walls inside of the Kingdom Hall.
When you are a kid in a very small congregation, it is especially difficult. You may have absoutely nothing in common with any of these "friends". You are thrown together and labeled as friends only because of circumstance that you happen to be in the same religion and in the same congregation.
There is nothing REAL about those friendships at all. It is sad.
The good news is that when you leave, YOU get to choose who you want to be friends with, and who you don't.