Glad to have you speak out, Nat. And, your outlook is encouraging, with your positive slant on how things will turn out. It's good to see someone determined to pick up and carry on after being slammed around and wounded.
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by Nat inso, how is everyone this fine day!
=;o) i thought i'd stop lurking for ahwile and pop in and say hey!
it's good to see all the different fews and i fondly reconize many names!
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Do it for yourself - further education
by Celtic inmany of us have suffered at some time from ontological insecurity, who am i, where am i going?
what do i want to do with my life?
often, it can take a while to start seeing your personal dreams pay off, but when you do, it really is the best feeling ever.. i have not a qualification at present to my name but i've fought and fought to get to where i am now, going to college for the first time in my life at the grand age of 34 to study 3 of the subjects that are extremely close to my heart.. garden design, environmental conservation and farm diversification and sustainability.. my first two days this past week, well, it just felt great to be plugging into life with what i always wanted to do, and i'd encourage anyone else to do the same.. learn new skills, meet new people, question things, inquire with an inquisitive mind, challenge yourselves, motivate others, try new sporting activities, hell, go skydiving, that much oxogen blowing up the nostrils must be one hell of a rush.. still, be kind to yourselves, know your limits and don't beat yourself up too much like i've done to myself and learnt the hard way, that this does one no positive favours.. i guess what i'm trying to say is, go out there and enjoy your life, you have this given right and the only thing that is stopping any of you is you.. give life stink!!
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That's good advice, Celtic. You have three years on me; I was 37 when I started college. It changed my life. One of the most valuable things I learned from going to college was that it was possible for me to do it.
I used to get anxious about 3/4 of the way through the semester, when I would have a 10-page essay due in one class, a major exam in another, a speech assignment in a third and lab work due in a fourth. I was working 40 hours per week (evening shift), and sometimes I stayed up all night after getting off work, only finishing an assignment in time to turn it in that day. And I would splash cold water on my face and look at myself in the mirror and ask, "Why am I doing this to myself?"
And at the end of every semester, when I pulled down another straight A report card, I felt exhiliarated, empowered, confident, and even a little bit amazed, that I had accomplished it!
I remember standing on the back porch one morning, sipping coffee and basking in the glow of another accomplished semester, and suddenly speaking out loud to myself, "I am strong. I am determined. I am tenacious. I am powerful. I can do anything."
This wasn't some planned and memorized affirmation I was reciting in the hope of making it become so. It was a spontaneous acknowledgement of what was already true.
I agree with Celtic, friends: go to college! You don't even have to be pursuing a degree. My classes--even the ones I felt were unnecessary to my primary goal--were informative, interesting, entertaining, challenging, exciting and fun. They were a wonderful way to invest my time.
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WBTS on the Prowl
by Stephanus in.
(give it time - it usually takes a few minutes before it shows up)
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Thus says the Psalmist.... and so be it....
by AGuest inmay you all have peace.. "do hear, o god, my entreating cry.. do pay attention to my prayer.. from the extremity of the earth i. shall cry, even to you,.
when my heart grows feeble.. onto a rock that is higher than i am.
even [his] heart, is deep.. but god will shoot at them.
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But God will shoot at them
with an arrow suddenly.
Wounds have resulted to themShelby...
Shelby, hello... hello? Shelby?
You're drooling, hon. Here, here's a kleenex.
There. You've still got a little hanging from your chin. Yeah, there, you've got it.
Kaiser COMF
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You make me laugh and you break my heart.
by seven006 inshelby, .
i will say the same thing to you as i said to shelby.
i read your posts when they are a flower and i think you are quite a woman and you posses so much love and understanding.
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I like reading your comments, Lilacs. Glad to know that you are aware of an area that can use some improvement, and are working on it. It sure beats the alternatives: not knowing, or worse yet, knowing but not doing anything about it!
David Crosby sez:
Your mother's ghost stands at your shoulder
Face like ice--a little bit colder
Saying to you
"You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules"...or, grandmother's ghost...
Anyway, the condemning voice of your grandmother can be replaced; replaced by your own approving voice. Speak well to, and of, yourself. Be proud of yourself! And, say to yourself that you are proud of yourself! Look yourself in the eye, in the mirror, and say, "I love you." And then smile approvingly.
COMF
(Hey... it works for me!)
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How many unanswered questions?
by sleepy inhere's something ive been thinking about.. just how many unanswered questions are there?.
what questions do you want answered ?.
what things are definatly known what are not?.
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What color is this question?
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Thus says the Psalmist.... and so be it....
by AGuest inmay you all have peace.. "do hear, o god, my entreating cry.. do pay attention to my prayer.. from the extremity of the earth i. shall cry, even to you,.
when my heart grows feeble.. onto a rock that is higher than i am.
even [his] heart, is deep.. but god will shoot at them.
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Dressed to the Nines, are ya?
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Thus says the Psalmist.... and so be it....
by AGuest inmay you all have peace.. "do hear, o god, my entreating cry.. do pay attention to my prayer.. from the extremity of the earth i. shall cry, even to you,.
when my heart grows feeble.. onto a rock that is higher than i am.
even [his] heart, is deep.. but god will shoot at them.
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"Right..." said Fred
I'm too humble for my philia
Too humble for my philia
Philia's going to leaveI'm too humble for my white skirts
Too humble for my white skirts
So humble it hurts
And
I'm too humble for my land
Benjamin, Promised LandI'm too humble for Christ's body
Too humble for Christ's body
The way I'm prophesyingI'm a prophet, ya know what I mean
And I do my little turn on the forum
Yeah on the forum
On the forum yeah
I do my little turn on the forumI'm too humble for a star
Too humble for a star
Too humble by far
And
I'm too humble for this chat
Too humble for this chat
What ya think about thatI'm a prophet, ya know what I mean
And I do my little turn on the forum
Yeah on the forum
On the forum yeah
I shake my little tush on the forumI'm too humble for my post
Too humble for my post
Poor wussy
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Another loss...we love you Mulan
by Princess inmy mom's cousin sharon passed away at 1:30pm thursday september 6, 2001. she was a lovely person and was always more like a sister than a cousin.
mulan held her hand every step of the way through a battle with breast cancer and she was with her when she died.. mom's birthday is tomorrow.
now she will celebrate sharon's life along with her own every year at this time.. i wish there was some way to ease your pain mom.
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As others here, so am I, Marilyn... feeling powerless and unable to express my sorrow at your loss.
Yon rising Moon that looks for us again-
How oft hereafter will she wax and wane;
How oft hereafter rising look for us
Through this same Garden---and for one in vain!And when like her, oh Saki, you shall pass
Among the guests star-scatter'd on the Grass,
And in your joyous errand reach the spot
Where I made one--turn down an empty Glass!He is saying:
Today you and I walk together, but one day I will be gone, and you will go on without me. Live a happy life; and when, in the course of living, you have occasion to think of me, drink a toast to my memory ("turn down an empty glass").COMF, turning down an empty glass for Sharon
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You make me laugh and you break my heart.
by seven006 inshelby, .
i will say the same thing to you as i said to shelby.
i read your posts when they are a flower and i think you are quite a woman and you posses so much love and understanding.
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I'm inclined to invite you to apply where I work. My department head, Jim, mentioned today for the third time that he is looking to add someone to our group who can focus on graphics. I'm the resident ASP, VB/COM, ADO and SQL guy; three of us are Cold Fusion headbangers; and a couple more take care of the hardware end of things. Jim is the only one with any extensive graphics experience, and he's too busy heading up the department to be able to do it.
Downside: 1) we're in Texas, not California, and 2) as a freelancer, you're likely accustomed to earning more than we would want to offer here.
Still, if you want details, feel free to email me. Hope all goes well for you in your search.
COMF