Sad to say I was so confused when everything was going on, I wanted so much for the whole thing to go as smoothly as possible. I was married for 8 yrs and my sons were raised in the JW's so I figured it would be best to let them continue to go for the meanwhile so that everything didnt change for them at once. So my ex said he would pick them up from my house to take them to the meetings on Tuesday's, Thursdays and Sunday. So then he started saying how he was lonely since I had left and wanted the kids to sleep over his house more often so I agreed again trying to keep things as peacful as possible. While all this is going on he is telling the children the Im a Satan worshipper and that I am going to be destroyed so the boys were scared and started to ask to stay with him more because of that but they wouldnt tell me. So when I started dating other people it got ugly and the kids didnt want to be with me at all because he filled their head with so many ideas. I started working secularly a few months before we separated so that he could stay home and build his business. So now he has more time to be with them and Im stuck working to try to survive. So I had to move in with my boyfriend and after that my ex didnt want the kids at my house at all. Now they come over every Monday and every other weekend but they're anxious to go back to they're dad's house because they're afraid. So it pretty much feels like I lost them completely. Theyre with me physically but they're hearts and minds are completely gone.
Michelle5480
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Feeling sooo isolated.....
by Michelle5480 in.
hello to all, i was raised pretty much as a jw and became one of the super goodie two shoes type, you know......didnt even swear when i was alone.. im now disfellowshipped and since i followed the guideline of not having friends outside the organization i now find myself completely alone, my friends are all jw's and none of them can talk to me.
so now i feel lost....on another planet almost .
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Life Sucks!!!!
by Tez inaaaaaagggghhhhh!!!
thats how i feel at the mo!!!
why is it that no matter how hard you try life still sh**s on you!!!!!
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Michelle5480
I strongly agree, life does suck. Unfortunately its something we cant hide from. My biggest feeling is of being lost. Being told all my life that all i have to do is go preaching, do things right and everything will be fine. We're even taught that education isnt even important, as long as we preach and follow all the guidelines. Now the guidelines are gone no meetings, no one telling me what I should and shouldnt do. Now Ive made it my plight in life to look to the future as if I have many many years ahead and no one is going to magically save me from the world. Im now working to better myself to understand what things really matter. What can I do now to make things better for me 10 years from now. Remember Jehovah never really magically saved anyone. Even Moses and his people had to walk through the hot desert to salvation a hard plight to get where they themselves and their offspring to be 10 or 20 yrs down the line. You control your own destiny, life will continue to suck unless you change it.
Lots of love a big hug to you from Chicago
PM me anytime
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~*~*~*~Horrible Life! Its your Birthday~*~*~*~
by misspeaches into dear horrible life.
jwd's ever reliable birthday greeter!.
here is wishing you a splendid birthday.
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Michelle5480
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KINDA LATE BUT BETTER LATE THAN NEVER.
I HOPE YOUR WISHES ALL COME TRUE. I GIVE YOU A BIG BIRTHDAY .
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Introducing myself proper-like
by Sheepish ini guess i should do this in some beginning way, i am new here and still learning my way around the site.. i was raised in a divided household, and my mom taught us in secret.
when my dad found out the insuing religious wars pretty much marked me for life.
but i was imprinted with the wt.
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LOL hellrider!!
We always saw the drama actors as celebrities, everyone would run to the backstage area during the lunch break to take pictures with the "actors".
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S. Assembly Day St. Louis 10-16-05
by jeeprube inmy wife attended the special assembly day this last sunday.
here are some interesting points.. 1. attendance was 700.
(typically, attendance tops 1000).
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Michelle5480
Simply amazing isnt it? The same organization that has millions or billions of dollars of net worth cant allow theyre followers to enjoy a cost free meeting. It boggles me how they get millions or billiions in contributions and yet each congregation has to pay its own kindom hall expenses. We pretty much pay for our own books and magazines and contributions we get from that has to go back to the society. I also love how the CO gets a brand new Buick Lesabre while the rest of us working class who try to be humble drive crappy cars we cant even be seen preaching in. Not to mention theyre bang up health plans.
Ironic isnt it !!!
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Introducing myself proper-like
by Sheepish ini guess i should do this in some beginning way, i am new here and still learning my way around the site.. i was raised in a divided household, and my mom taught us in secret.
when my dad found out the insuing religious wars pretty much marked me for life.
but i was imprinted with the wt.
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Welcome sheepish, we all pretty much come off the same boat, some boats in worse shape than others. I personally was married to a JW had two children in the organization and couldnt take the emotional and mental abuse from my "JW" husband and I decided to leave. I met someone new now and am completely happy. My saddest and heart breaking dilemma is my children are afraid to be with me because they're father has told them that they will be destroyed by god if they are with me when armaggedon comes. Keep in mind my children are 4 and 6. I also pioneered I went to the meeting when my husband wouldnt go and I was the one that kept us going to the meetings and now I left and all of a sudden he is mr spiritual. Needless to say he is fighting me for custody and would let them come live with me because I no longer attend the meetings. I will keep everyone posted on how our custody case comes out.
Take heart your not alone!
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Were you ever "caught", then lied to the would-be tattle tale?
by AlmostAtheist ini can just imagine the scenario.
you're a jw, but you're waking up to it all.
you know your eternal salvation doesn't depend on obeying every 'particle of a letter' in the law of the watchtower.
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I think I met sister Enya Bidniz she seemed to be at every congregation I went to.
My ex husband tattled on me when he found out I was seeing someone else. I planned to just date and not say anything but when they confronted me it pissed me off and I told them " yeah Im dating and I love this guy what are you going to do about it." and long story short here I am now 7 mths later disfellowshipped.
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Feeling sooo isolated.....
by Michelle5480 in.
hello to all, i was raised pretty much as a jw and became one of the super goodie two shoes type, you know......didnt even swear when i was alone.. im now disfellowshipped and since i followed the guideline of not having friends outside the organization i now find myself completely alone, my friends are all jw's and none of them can talk to me.
so now i feel lost....on another planet almost .
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THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!
Everyone has made me feel so much better...
Its only been about 7 mths since I completely left. Doing things differently is the hardest part. Im so used to ignoring people for fear that they might actually want to be my friend and then having to tell them Im a JW and cant associate with them. Now I strike up conversations with everyone. I work in a hospital in Chicago so I have ample opportunity to be friendly and have good conversations. Im pregnant right now so when Im off of work duty I plan to go join prenatal yoga classes and aqua classes and just trying to find ways to find new friends.
Im happy I found this board....to Horrible Life if your ever in Chicago, I love Subway and always happy to buy . Same goes for anyone else in the Chicago land area.
Lots of love and big hugs for everyone, feel free to email me or PM me.
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Ever feel like the Odd one out?
by Jordan inso, there's major drama going on in my family at the moment.
personally i've been trying to keep well clear of it, but there's all hell breaking loose with members of the extended family, and my mum's been called in as peace keeper.
anyway, several members of the family were discussing something, (i won't go in to details, it's not my place, and i just didn't pay that much attention) anyway, i'm going about my business in the kitchen, then i wander through to the living room, where someone mentions the possibility of a family member getting dfed, anyway, i make my first comment in a long time and say "so what?
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Michelle5480
Been there done it, my ex husband mom and sister are all JW's. Everytime they see me its their mission in life to try to bring me back. Ive gone through the water works , the pleading , the guilt trips , and they never give up. So please believe it will never stop. In theyre eyes your a deadman walking. Keep your head up though, this just may be your time to leave the nest.
Best of Luck to You !!
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Erratic jw dogma virtue or vice?
by greendawn inthe jw dogma makers have tacitly admitted that numerous of their interpretations of the bible are erroneous, by bringing in new ones to replace the previous.
in fact they keep shifting their positions on most issues over the 130 years of their existence.
they try to present this as a kind of virtue: they admit their errors and humbly change them.
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Michelle5480
Intent to convince an active JW of these constant misinterpretations..........the always used excuse is "the light was not as bright back then but it gets brighter and we realize new things" why would Jehovah shine a dim light on people and let them get misinterpretations and misguide millions. Why does the light get brighter now than it was back then? Whose mistake is that and why did it happen? Of course when your bring these things up the word "apostate" comes up in the next sentence they utter to you, go figure.