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This might be an unpopular opinion in this thread, but I believe in God now more than I did before. As I witness, "Jehovah" seemed so far away and unapproachable and cruel sometimes. When I left the witnesses, I thought God was either dead or didn't exist. But as I have become untangled from that whole mess, I have meant wonderful, kind people - people I was taught didn't even exist. Knowing these people, and having the freedom to pursue my own intersts without guilt, makes me believe there is a God. I'm not sure exactly what he is like. But I don't think he is anything like the God we learned about as JW's. I do think the real God wants us to enjoy life and eat it up. This is just my opinion, but I think all of the religous organizations out there and they are man made, and most foster a distorted view of God. Yeah we have free will, and at the hands of men, a lot of our world sucks. But there are a lot of good things too. I think your faith will fluctuate with time and at some point you will pursue some sort of relationship with God, but it doesn't have to be like the relationship we were taught.
ConnieLynn
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How petty is JW's God............
by LyinEyes ini hope that i will be able to properly express this thought on the board , that has been stuck in my head.
as a jw , i was always so concerned with pleasing jehovah.
was i paying strict attn at the meetings, was my heart in the ministry, all the other works you are supossed to love to do.
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ConnieLynn
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Suggestions Please
by ConnieLynn inmy mother has been sick for a couple of months and undergoing a battery of tests, she is a jw.
we live 3000 miles apart.
well she just called and informed me that she had just received some bad news from her doctor this afternoon.
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ConnieLynn
All your replies meant more to me than you know. I'm going to Florida to be with my mom. Thank you, I just needed to hear from someone people who understood this whole thing. I have a support network of people in my life now that are totally unfamiliar with JW's. This whole dynamic of being shunned by family is foreign to them. I appreciate all your help...
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Suggestions Please
by ConnieLynn inmy mother has been sick for a couple of months and undergoing a battery of tests, she is a jw.
we live 3000 miles apart.
well she just called and informed me that she had just received some bad news from her doctor this afternoon.
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ConnieLynn
sf - the borg came between my mother and me in 94' when I was DF'd. She is the one who told me to stay away and that she wanted me to support her wishes. I don't know how to do that. If there was an ounce of hope that my opinion counted for anything, I would kick my JW sister,cousins,aunts and elders all out of there. Unfortunately, it only works out like that in my imagination...
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Suggestions Please
by ConnieLynn inmy mother has been sick for a couple of months and undergoing a battery of tests, she is a jw.
we live 3000 miles apart.
well she just called and informed me that she had just received some bad news from her doctor this afternoon.
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ConnieLynn
My mother has been sick for a couple of months and undergoing a battery of tests, she is a JW. We live 3000 miles apart. Well she just called and informed me that she had just received some bad news from her doctor this afternoon. She has a growth in her colon and is bleeding internally They want her to immediately have a transfusion and exploratory surgery. Her blood count is shy of 4, whatever that means and she can hardly get up. Her answer to the trasfusion was (surprise) no, and of course surgery is out of the question with her blood count so low. The Dr suspects cancerous tumor. Long story short, my JW sister and her husband are flying in to be with her and they have contacted the local elders etc... trying to find a doctor who will treat her without blood.
I started to tell her what I thought and I was told to keep my opinions to myself and stay at home. Stay home? How do I do that? How am I supposed to act? I am so mad I just want to hit someone or something. Am I supposed to sit at home and wait for bad news? Is it normal to feel like blowing up the next KH I see? Once again this religion is constricting my heart and making it hard for me to breathe, much less cope. I also have the lovely news of calling my other DF'd sister, who is away at college, and telling her. This is my first family type crisis that I have had since I have been DF'd. Have any of you been through this before?
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Input please
by orangefatcat ini have been wondering, just how many of us here started looking into the injustices of the wtbs after being disfellowshipped.
did some of us look here in order to justify our anger because we were ousted.
did some have hatred right away or was it gradual?
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ConnieLynn
I got mad and saw a lot of #@$%# before I got DF'd, but then, I got madder the more I did some research. I felt assured that I had done the right thing, the more I learned. Now, I want to tell all JW's to get out, but of course that doesn't work. I see what you're saying though, either way, it works out...you end up outraged when you realize so many people have been mislead.
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My Dad called
by Elsewhere inthe other day i sent my family a framed studio photograph that i had made for them.. i called to make sure they got it and my mom said that she did and that it was placed with the other family photos in the living room.. a few days later my dad called to thank me.
he then went off into a tangent about how he wants me to come back to the "truth".
i told him that i respect his right to believe as he will, but i expect the same in return.
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ConnieLynn
Elsewhere - Your dad sounds like my mom! It doesn't matter how happy you are, you're out of the "truth" therefore, you are danger of losing your life at Armageddon. THerefore, lay on the guilt trip! I always feel sick to my stomach after one of those conversations with my mother. Every single time I talk to my mom, which isn't often, I remember what is was like to be in the organization, it is such an intense feeling, I feel upset for hours sometimes days after. Hang in there, you've come a long way just getting out. I don't know if those feelings ever completely go away. I do know it helps to talk to other people who have had the same or similar experiences, so stay on this board and talk to all of us...it really helps.
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birthday...
by zanex inits my birthday friday!
i have a bunch of "worldly" friends that i really care about and they are all planning on taking me out but i hesitate...i just only recently within the last 2 years started taking active interest in my birthday so i only have a minimal idea of what to feel...i know i will go out and get trashed and plastered but i want to know what it feels like...i dont know if this post makes any sense haha i think i'm gonna just drink myself into a nice stupor and pass out somewhere hahaha...any tips or advice from anybody here?
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ConnieLynn
I had a little too much fun on my birthday....I don't feel so good this afternoon, however...It was so fun!!!
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Disturbing material in May 15, 2002 Watchtower
by spender inin the questions from readers section, the question was: "would it be advisable for a true christian to attend a funeral or a wedding in a church?".
to analyze this wonderful piece, i'm going to use their words, and translate them into real english.. "being in a group where everyone else is engaging in a false religious act, a christian may find it difficult to resist the pressure to join in.
how unwise to expose oneself to such pressure!".
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ConnieLynn
That makes me so mad!! The words say "Just have a clean conscience before God and MEN" but I hear "If you go, feel guilty about it" I couldn't stand that when I was there and it makes me mad still! They throw that conscience word out so loosely. What about respect for the person who died and their family...comforting those people. And who are the folks asking these questions? What readers are writing and asking this stuff?
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JW's and Marriage
by Xena ini am wondering how many jw's stay in a marriage because they have to?
i mean i know there are happy marriages out there (somewhere i am sure), but i have run across several jw wives who are just waiting on their significant other to commet "the act" so they can divorce them and move on with their lives.. divorce has become less of a taboo thing in the org, but it is still frowned upon and people that do divorce, even on the scriptural grounds, are somewhat stigmatized.
so i guess my question is what do you think the divorce rate would be if jw's could get divorced for any grounds with no repercussions?
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ConnieLynn
Most witnesses I knew got married right out of high school.I was married to an elder (I got married before I was 18 to a guy age 28)...I would have left earlier than I did, but I didn't know what I would do.
That is so sad for people raised as a witness. You're whole support network is made up of witnesses, so you don't dare tell someone how you "REALLY" feel. And if you did leave, where would you go, what would you do?. No witness in good standing would let you stay with them.
In addition, since you have never dated without a chaperone, you intimidated around other men, and get nervous if they look at you. It's a set up so you think you can't leave.
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What is your favorite color?
by myself inoops sounds like another site some have talked about.
must have been the years of brainwashing.
* slaps the side of her head -out, out, out !!!
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ConnieLynn
I like dark hair on a man, I don't mind bald though. But I love a goatee or beard..any color