Well with the exception of posting on this board hanging with you cool apostates. I registered to vote and went gambling. Never ever would I have done this a few months ago. I know it does not sound major but this is a big step for me. I have always been interested in politics but never allowed myself to explore that interest until now. And the gambling well I won't be doing that again anytime soon. What a waste of money.
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I've committed my first real df'ing offense
by LeftBehind inwell with the exception of posting on this board hanging with you cool apostates.
i registered to vote and went gambling.
never ever would i have done this a few months ago.
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A "Friend" Writes
by geevee ingeevee, what's the story?
word on the street is that your not going to well spiritually.
i hope it's not true.
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LeftBehind
When I get e-mails like you do I am so tempted to respond like you did but I know they will rat me out. At first I replied thank you for your concern and I am doing fine. Now I don't even bother to respond because most are on fishing expeditions.
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I caught my JW parents digging in my trash + an intervention
by LeftBehind inoh where to start.
i will start with catching my parents digging in my trash.
my neighbor called me on the phone and thought i would like to know that 2 people were digging in my trash and asked if she should call the police.
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LeftBehind
Here is my update on my parents digging in my trash. They are still doing it. I know this because they confronted me on shredding all my papers and want to know what I am hiding. The first time I caught them I felt sorry for them now I feel so violated. How dare they do it again and then have the utter nerve to confront me on why I am shredding. I am so furious. I drew a line in the sand and told them they were not acting normal and that I will inform my neighbor to call the police if she sees them again. I know the police cannot do anything because my trash is "public" but hopefully it will deter them. I am so sickened. Not even in my most righteous dub days would I have considered digging in someones trash. That is just sick and not normal. I know JW's are not normal but sinking so low as to digging in someones trash and then confronting me about shredding my own papers??
I am still getting phone calls, unannounced visits and notes on my door. Some are getting more agressive though since the last time I posted. They are very upset with me for being vague. My elder brother even accused me of playing head games with them. I saw one sister do a drive by. I have come to the realization that they are not going to let me fade. That sucks. If they would let me fade then we could still have some sort of relationship. They cannot see that though.
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I caught my JW parents digging in my trash + an intervention
by LeftBehind inoh where to start.
i will start with catching my parents digging in my trash.
my neighbor called me on the phone and thought i would like to know that 2 people were digging in my trash and asked if she should call the police.
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LeftBehind
I am trying to develop boundaries but it is hard. They are so desperate. It's just a matter of time before I am busted. I am not going to hide my relationship with my brother and he drops by from time to time. I usually go to his house to escape the JW's especially on meeting nights.
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Something I want to tell you apostates part II
by LeftBehind into those that remember me i came here to tell you something.what i want to tell you is that you guys were right.
i have been researching the wt since i briefly posted on this board and i have come to the conclusion that the wt is nothing but a man made organization.
i have been researching the wt non stop since december.
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LeftBehind
Thank you everyone for the comments. I went back and reread some of my posts and I cannot believe how much has changed since then. Auldsoul I will ask my brother if I can pass on his e-mail address to you. I looked into the whole UN issue and after all the research I have done am not surprised in the least to find them whoring around with the UN but it did not stumble me. 607 is what really took me out and all those man made rules.
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I caught my JW parents digging in my trash + an intervention
by LeftBehind inoh where to start.
i will start with catching my parents digging in my trash.
my neighbor called me on the phone and thought i would like to know that 2 people were digging in my trash and asked if she should call the police.
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Oh where to start. I will start with catching my parents digging in my trash. My neighbor called me on the phone and thought I would like to know that 2 people were digging in my trash and asked if she should call the police. I jumped out of bed and and ran to the back yard thinking I was going to bust some elders. To my shock it was my parents. It is really sad that they had to stoop to that. I have loads and loads of JW research and sometimes I write things down on scratch paper and I print things off websites and then throw it away when I don't need it anymore. They did not bust me with anything really concrete. I was looking into Scientology and reading up on it. I was trying to see what turned Tom Cruise into such a weirdo. His views on child birth and depression are very disturbing to me. So anyway I printed some stuff out on Scientology and that is all they got. They asked me if I was going to become a Scientoligst and I was like no. They told me it was a cult. So they know I am looking at cults. I sent them home and I was not really angry with them. I can tell they are getting desperate and the next day I went to Sams and bought a shredder.
Now about my intervention. I mentioned here that I was going to skip the memorial. I did skip it and to my shock my whole JW family showed up afterwards and confronted me about not going. There must have been about 15 of them. They would not leave. All I got was why why why why did I skip the memorial and quit the meetings. All they got out of me is that I was on a journey. Oh that made them mad and they said they were going to do whatever it took to help get me out of this slump. The next day the PO called me and wanted to stop by. I asked him if anyone was on the other line listening and he said no. He asked why would I ask that. I told him just curious. I told him I was not interested in a shepherding call and that I would contact them when I was ready. They are going to be waiting a very long time.
So I have family and friends that call me 2-3 times a day everyday and stop by e/o day. I am beginning to feel like I am being stalked. Some actually have the nerve to question my whereabout when I am gone. It's getting to the point where I don't even want to go home. It never fails I have some damn note on my door. I am getting tempted to hang a letter of DA on my door so they leave me alone. I have considered moving into a gated community but I will hold off on that for a little while.
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When i was a JW
by KW13 ini remember i was in high school and i really wanted to get on the theocratic ministry school.
i was making progress, started getting responsibilities like the microphones, helped do little jobs e.t.c and slowly i was being brought into the center of the congregation.. i went for my "interview" to get on the theocratic ministry school and...... they knocked me back.
told me 'someone' had told them i was swearing and even if it wasn't true they wanted me to spend more time upbuilding my faith.
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LeftBehind
When I was 5 it was one of my goals to be on the TMS. I thought it was everything. I was a householder by age 6 and have my first talk soon thereafter.
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Something I want to tell you apostates part II
by LeftBehind into those that remember me i came here to tell you something.what i want to tell you is that you guys were right.
i have been researching the wt since i briefly posted on this board and i have come to the conclusion that the wt is nothing but a man made organization.
i have been researching the wt non stop since december.
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LeftBehind
I'd read a bit more on how to go about throwing all this at your family. If you do and they are not receptive, don't push them......it won't do any good and only alienate you from them much worse. Many are sauccesful at getting their families out...don't get me wrong....just make sure you read the situation well and do some reading on "how to witness to witness families" as there is much on this subject.
I am being very tight lipped for now so i won't be df'd. All they know is that I no longer want to go to meetings. I plan to wait.
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In your family, how many of the grown up children are still in?
by els ini am the youngest of 6 children (the only on that is out)and between us we have 12 kids.
the last i knew only one was still attending meetings.
two others were never baptized and see my parents once in a great while.
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LeftBehind
There is 5 of us. My brother and I are the only ones out. I am not officially yet.
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Something I want to tell you apostates part II
by LeftBehind into those that remember me i came here to tell you something.what i want to tell you is that you guys were right.
i have been researching the wt since i briefly posted on this board and i have come to the conclusion that the wt is nothing but a man made organization.
i have been researching the wt non stop since december.
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LeftBehind
Hi there. To those that remember me I came here to tell you something. What I want to tell you is that you guys were right. I have been researching the WT since I briefly posted on this board and I have come to the conclusion that the WT is nothing but a man made organization. I have been researching the WT non stop since December. It's become almost an obsession. I even used my vacation time from work to research. I decided if I was really going to find out the truth I could not use the WT literature as a guide. At first I used only secular resources when it came to researching 607. I cannot believe I never saw it before but the WT does not have it right. I tried and tried so hard to make it work with my calculator. Then there is the man made rules that have no scriptual backing. Like having to turn in time. Something as simple as that. I could go on and on for hours. What was a real turning point for me is when I finally accepted the faithful and discreet slave really does not speak for Jehovah. I am no longer sure what I believe anymore where God or the Bible is concerned. I am seeing everything is a whole new light now and now that my eyes are open so to speak there are some very disturbing things in the Bible particulary the old testament. That is a whole other topic though. The best part to come out of all this is that my brother and I are back in each others lives. I am so ashamed that I ever shunned him. I let mere men tell me who to associate with. I have quit the meetings and I have not been in nearly a month. Family, friends, and elders are coming by the house nonstop. My brother has coached me on how to act as to avoid being disfellowshipped. Still its just a matter of time before I am. I am not going to attend the memorial and it's just a matter of time before someone sees me associating with my brother. I think they suspect me of apostacy already. I slipped up once and asked an elder where it says in the Bible we should turn in time. After what went down with my brother they know what to look for and have apostate radar. I am getting it from all sides but I am holding up surprisingly well. At first I thought I was going to lose my mind but I have adjusted. I am not ready to get disfellowshipped yet. Hopefully I can fade but I am not going to hold my breath and I am not sure how much longer I can keep my month shut. I want to share everything I have learned with my family. If I can see the light about the WT then anyone can. So that is what is happening in my life. I no longer consider myself to be a Jehovahs Witness. It's been a very short time but I cannot imagine going back. I credit this board with opening my eyes. I read every post to me and am extremely glad that I did.